What people are saying about

Luisa Buehler

 

The Station Master: A Scheduled Death

 

"It has come time for Janet Evanovich to take a lesser seat–to move over for Luisa Buehler, whose characterization, setting, plot and twists in The Station Master are simply enthralling.  If you like your suspense cozy to medium boiled, Buehler has cooked up an excellent dish for her fans.  I highly recommend The Station Master and this series for its unique sleuth, strong voice, and crisp storytelling."

–Robert W. Walker, author of City for Ransom

 

"Cutting-edge cozy.  The Station Master is filled with long-buried secrets, elaborate twists, and nail-biting suspense.  Buehler and Marsden just keep getting better and better."

J.A. Konrath, author of

Bloody Mary: A Lt. Jack Daniels Thriller

 

"Grace Marsden returns in Luisa Buehler's charming The Station Master and proves once again that neither errant husbands, erstwhile lovers, nor a case of OCD can prevent her from ferreting out the truth.  A skeleton in an antique trunk is the starting point, but the end result is a fine blend of intrigue, vivid description, and quirky but compassionate characters.  Don't miss it."

Libby Fischer Hellmann

Author, the Ellie Foreman series

 

The Lion Tamer: A Caged Death

 

"…a veritable shot of adrenaline.  …you are drawn into her roller-coaster ride…Good job, Mrs. Buehler, The Lion Tamer is great mystery."

–Roundtable Reviews

 

"The Lion Tamer: A Caged Death reminds the reader that sooner or later a mystery reveals itself no matter how hard the guilty partner tries to bury it.  …guilt and regret keep the story moving at an interesting pace.  Buehler has a talent for creating dimensional characters right down to their daily-living routines and ever-surfacing emotions.  This book is a keeper."

–Denise Fleischer, gottawritenetwork.com

 

"a fast paced mystery that romps through DuPage County and surrounding areas.  ...you'll recognize numerous local landmarks referenced in the book–places like Cottage Hill Jewelers in Elmhurst, Good Samaritan Hospital and other local haunts (better you discover them yourself than for us to give them away!)

DuPage Woman Newspaper Central Edition

 

"With her second book, The Lion Tamer, Luisa Buehler offers us a curious heroine, a handsome husband, a dashing ex-lover and a skeleton or two.  Welcome to the engaging Grace Marsden's world, where romance and mayhem vie for her attention–much to a reader's satisfaction and delight!"

–Sharon Fiffer, author of The Jane Wheel Mysteries

 

The Rosary Bride: A Cloistered Death

 

"…a stylishly written novel evocative of Barbara Michaels and Teri Holbrook. Luisa Buehler presents a fascinating cast of characters, an engrossing tale of old wrongs, long-kept secrets, and murder."

–Denise Swanson, author of the bestselling

Scumble River Mysteries

 

"…a twisty, taut, compelling story of love gone wrong, a fascinating, haunting tale."

–Carolyn Hart, author of Pulitzer Nominee,

Letter from Home

 

"My favorite kind of book–old sins cast long shadows.  When a long-dead woman is found behind the fireplace at Rosary College, new crimes begin to happen…suspenseful and poignant."

–Barbara D'Amato, author of the Cat Marsala series


Books by

 

Luisa Buehler

 

 

The Grace Marsden Mystery series

 

The Station Master: A Scheduled Death

The Lion Tamer: A Caged Death

The Rosary Bride: A Cloistered Death

 

 

 

 

Coming Soon

 

The Scout Master: A Prepared Death


 

 

 

 

Luisa Buehler

 

The Station Master:

A Scheduled Death

 

Book Three

 

 

Grace Marsden Mystery series


This is a work of fiction.  Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real.  Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

 

Echelon Press

9735 Country Meadows Lane 1-D

Laurel, MD 20723

 

Copyright © 2005 by Luisa Buehler

ISBN: 1-59080-458-9 Paper

ISBN: 1-59080-459-7 E-Book

www.echelonpress.com

 

All rights reserved.  No part of this book may be used or reproduced in any manner whatsoever without written permission, except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.  For information address Echelon Press.

 

First Echelon Press paperback printing: November 2005

Cover Art © Nathalie Moore

2004 Ariana Best in Category Award winner

 

Printed in USA


 

Dedication

 

To Gerry and Christopher

who are always there, offering love and practicing patience.

 

 

 

Acknowledgments

 

This is a work of fiction, but like the pearl that grew around a single grain of sand, this story developed around a modicum of fact.  I am grateful to Kris Guill, owner of Jefferson Hill Tea Room, John Reeder, owner of Book Nook News, and Carl Grumbles, past president of the Lisle Heritage Society for sharing their stories.  A special thank you to Officer Cindy McNaney of the Lisle Police for clarification on procedures.  The 'armchair sleuths,' reference librarians at the Lisle Library, rate high marks and thanks for the details they gathered.  It is in the details that a story comes to life.


 

 

 

All Aboard!

 

Magic music of the iron rails humming, engaging the imagination, changing to desire for adventure.

 

Holidays, honeymoons, and homecomings, each beginning with a ticket to ride.  The end of the line is a beginning in reverse…

 

Unless the ticket to ride is one way.


 

 

 

Chapter One

 

 

 

       The nightmare hardly came anymore.  Mornings dawned sweet and rested, most mornings.  Not this one.  The gut-wrenching fear, the prickly sweat tore me from a sound sleep.  I slipped from under the covers to the floor panting through the residual panic of the nightmare, hoping I wouldn't wake Harry.

       My breathing calmed.  I gently lifted my side of the covers and slid between still warm sheets.  I lay awake waiting for the time to pass and my nightgown to dry.

 

       "We fly home in three days, Grace.  It's time.  We can't hide here any longer."

       The pain at the thought of home still gripped my heart.  It was crazy to think rushing off to another continent would heal me.  I feared leaving; afraid that the healing joy I'd felt these past months would vanish if I crossed borders.  My mind had created a 'Brigadoon' and now I panicked at the prospect of crossing that bridge back to my life.

       "Grace?  I said we're leaving in three days.  Is there anywhere else you want to visit before we go?  Any church jumble you haven't plundered?  Any brass rubbings you've missed?"

       My husband's attempt at gleaning a smile from me failed miserably.  I hated myself for the topsy-turvy emotions that plagued me even during idyllic outings with Harry and his family.  They had been patient and loving through these past months.

       Harry and I arrived on their doorstep with one day notice and one suitcase.  The maniac who once had been Harry's friend, but who had stalked me with deadly intent, had destroyed our home.  Harry's parents, William and Dorothy Marsden, swept us into theirhearts and life in the blink of an eye.  They had readied the entire upstairs for us.  We slept in Harry's old room and used his sister's adjacent bedroom as a sitting room.  Both rooms had been left as they had been all those years before.  Hannah's room still held the fragrance of lavender sachets in the drawers and armoire; Harry's room so typically boy even to his initials carved onto his desktop with his first Swiss army knife, H.N.M., Harry Nicholas Marsden.

       Tears welled up in my eyes and my hands sought the comfort of a length of yarn tied to my belt loop.  I kept my eyes on my hands while I looped and braided ten series of knots hoping the routine would calm my nerves and give me time to master my emotions.

       Harry tipped my chin up and looked into my eyes.

       "Pansy purple," he pronounced.  He leaned forward and brushed his lips against my cheek.

       Even without the tears my mood would have been apparent.  My personal physiology reacts to high emotion by changing the color of my eyes from a lavender shade with gold flecks to a deep pansy purple hue.  My personal barometer makes it difficult to lie or hide much.  Everyone who knows me can read me like a book.

       "Gracie, please.  We have to put this behind us.  We did it once before.  We can do it now."

       Harry turned his cornflower blue eyes away from my face and glanced out the window past the flower boxes attached to the sills bursting with color and tumbledown charm in the form of Verbena, Petunia, and Celosia.  His gaze continued across the neatly manicured lawn to the stone pillars at the macadam road that marked the Marsden entrance.

       "It's lovely here, no doubt old girl, but it's not our home.  We need to make peace with where we belong.  Only way for that to happen is to go home, Gracie.  And what about those job offers?  People are waiting on you, love."  He teased me now.  "You would make a wonderful event planner.  Ask your family.  Your brothers told me you were always planning their lives."

       Harry's emphasis on planning brought a smile to my face as I remembered the countless birthday parties, prom parties, school events that I had planned and participated in with the reluctant help of my brothers.

       "Even Barb sent you a letter about joining her on some project."

       Our neighbor in Pine Marsh had mailed me a notice about a position for an event planner/marketing designer for a Naperville PR firm that would be handling a big event in Lisle for their Depot Days celebration.  Barb as vice president of the Heritage Society, the group hiring the PR firm, had already talked me up with the firm.

       "Yeah, everyone thinks I ought to get a job.  Even Karen suggested I look into teaching a writing class at Trinity.  Does my unemployed status annoy people?"  I was being facetious since my full time job was writing children's books.  I had finished the fourth in my "Mick the Monster" series shortly before our lives had been slammed into the Twilight Zone by a maniac bent on revenge.

       "People care about you.  They love you.  I love you.  That's why we need to go home.

       "Why?  We can stay here, not this house, but in Arundel or maybe Bath.  We could open a bookstall on the river.  You were a publisher in England before, you can do it again.  Or you could finish writing your book on plants.  Plants are better here.  Roses, you could grow wonderful roses here."

       Harry placed two fingers against my lips to halt the torrent of wishful thinking spewing from my mouth.  I took his hand in mine and kissed the top.  His hands had been burned in the explosion that damaged our house.

       They had healed remarkably well especially after we arrived in Arundel.  A great aunt, Mildred, knew a lady friend who bottled the most marvelous honey from healing bees.  I scoffed at the story.  Harry's response had been different.  My cosmopolitan husband listened and followed her instructions.  It was imperative that he travel with her to the hives and thank the bees for their help.  I stood in amazement as my world traveled, high tech gadget guy, agreed to drive an hour then walk the three miles to the recluse's cottage to thank the bees.  Harry told me the bee lady knew the honey would work because the bees 'voices' grew hearty in the hive when Harry thanked them.

       Those bees deserved Harry's heartfelt thanks and mine too.  Within weeks of using the honey salve, the tops of his hands had grown smooth and supple.  The tightness and pain he had lived with had lessened.

       "I want to go back to the bee lady and thank her bees."  I looked up at Harry and tried a true smile.

       "I've already thanked them, darling."

       "I want to thank them for helping you and I want to ask her if I can thank her in advance for someone else."  I stood up and walked to the window.  With my back to Harry I lobbed my request over my shoulder.  "Karen sent me a note on things back home.  She mentioned that Ric is still in rehab.  The department is forcing him to retire on full disability.  She says the therapy isn't going well; so much scar tissue.  I thought I'd bring home the honey for him to try."

       Ric Kramer, my best friend's brother, had been injured in the same blast that hurt Harry.  Ric owed his life to Harry.  An awkward balance since Ric and I had once been close.  Each time Ric reentered my life my marriage seemed to suffer from the encounter.  I now mentioned Ric for the first time in three months.  I felt I needed to act now.  I turned to catch Harry's reaction.

       "Of course we'll bring him the honey.  I'll ring Aunt Mildred this morning and arrange the outing.  Wait until you see the bee lady, Gracie.  It's like she's from another time; like when those Druids you're so fond of telling me I'm related to ran amok."

       He left the room to call his aunt from the kitchen, the only room in his parents' home with a telephone.  Harry's good humor at my suggestion surprised me.  The line from the Snoopy comic strip ran through my head, 'You're a good man, Charlie Brown.'  A good man indeed.  Six foot tall, a trim, athletic build, blond hair streaked platinum from summer sun, and a dazzling smile.  A young Roger Moore, of the Simon Templar era, my friends had decided when I first met Harry.  His crystal cut English accent nailed their choice.

       Harry walked toward me from the kitchen.  "Aunt Mildred says we can motor out there tomorrow with her.  She'd like a visit with Morgana."

       "The bee lady's name is Morgana?  Wasn't she Merlin's nemesis?"

       "I'm joking, darling.  Her name is Maeve Flood.  Thought 'Morgana' would amuse you."

       My husband's sense of humor still escaped me at times.

       "Maeve?  Doesn't sound like an English bee lady.  I thought her name would be something like Hyacinth or Minerva."

       "I think it's a perfect name for her; a touch exotic for the English recluse.  She's one of those 'inner sight' people, according to Aunt Mildred," he added.  "Some people think she's a bit odd, talking to the bees and all, but I found her charming.  She was thrilled to find out I lived in America; asked more questions about Pine Marsh than a realtor.  Said she'd always wanted to visit Illinois; don't know if she was being kind or casting for an invitation for lodging.  I told her to contact us through Aunt Mildred if she ever made plans.  Wait 'til you meet her; she's going to absolutely eat you up."

       Harry's infectious smile didn't touch my heart.  I kept thinking about the fairy tale Hansel and Gretel and the witch in the woods.

       "I told Aunt Mildred what you wanted to do.  She thought that refreshingly generous of you.  She doesn't think your thanks will be enough, but the honey will still help somewhat."  Harry's face grew somber.  "Maeve told her before that only the person who needs the healing or someone who loves that person can thank the bees."

       I'm certain my eyes flared purple as I realized what Harry implied.  The mere mention of Ric a few minutes earlier had wedged him between us again.  I felt guilty for feeling that I qualified.  "I'll be sincere and hope for the best with the bees."

       "Don't worry.  I'm certain the bees will hum beautifully for you."

       His quiet voice reminded me again that he has never felt truly certain of my heart of hearts since that time so many years ago when I found comfort in another man's arms and heart.  After being told that Harry was dead; I had turned to Ric.

       "Harry, please.  Then you thank the bees.  You saved his life.  That should count for something with the damn bees."  My voice faltered.

       "Don't insult them or they won't help no matter how much you uh, care for the good Inspector Kramer.  They may have scouts sucking nectar from the petunias, checking you out."  Harry waved his hand toward the window box where a bee busily visited each bloom.

       My husband's mood shifted as quickly as a stray cloud across a beaming sun.  His mood swings had swelled and crested about eighteen months after his 'return from the grave.'  The doctors had warned me and his family that his mind was trying to balance itself from the horror he'd been through after a South American gang he was trying to break kidnapped him.  Harry had lived a different life before our marriage; a life I didn't suspect until he disappeared on a 'business' trip to Rio de Janeiro.

       I recognized this adjustment and decided not to belabor the point.  "All right then.  Let's sneak past their sentry into the kitchen and put some lunch together for a picnic.  I'd like to walk to the ruins you showed me last month."

       "Excellent idea."

       "What's an excellent idea?"  Dorothy Marsden walked into the room from the kitchen.

       "Good morning, mum."  Harry planted a dutiful kiss on his mother's cheek.  Dorothy beamed at her son.  She appeared to have grown more animated and younger with each passing day since our arrival.  Her soft gray eyes gleamed and her gentle mouth seemed less pursed.  Dorothy wore her silver hair in a soft chin-length bob.  Even her hair shimmered as though lit from within with its own light source.

       I knew my presence wasn't the cause of her metamorphosis.  Harry's effect wasn't limited to his mother.  William Marsden seemed to also have strengthened in his son's presence.  William had suffered a heart attack several years earlier, when the erroneous news of his son's death had reached him.  Each time we visited since Harry's rescue, William had seemed buoyed by the time we spent with them.  This visit had lasted much longer.  I'm sure they felt as though their son had moved back home.

       "Gracie and I are planning a walk to the ruins."  He smiled at his mother.  "First, we are planning to cop the Edam, sourdough, pickles, and a tiny bit of that sausage we bought in Bath.  And some fruit.  Those pears from the market.  And the cherries.  They were sweet.  Anything for you?"  He arched an eyebrow in my direction.

       I laughed at his bill of fare.  Harry could snack all day and never gain an ounce.  I came from a corned beef and pasta genetic coupling.  My mother's lean, Irish genes were most apparent in three of my brothers.  My father's Morelli genes settled in me and my older brother Mike Jr.  He looked exactly like our father.  We always pushed away from the Morelli tavola well before our siblings Joseph, Glen, and Marty.

       "I thought you'd want to enjoy the day outdoors so I had Mary pack a hamper for you.  You'd best check if the pickles are in there."  Dorothy's soft voice filled with warmth as her maternal instincts were satisfied.

       Mary, a local lady who worked in the neighborhood for several older couples, would come in and do housework and some cooking.  She had been a godsend when William had first become ill.

       "Pickles are gone.  Ate the last one last night," William Marsden said from the front porch.  Posed in front of the window box, he looked every inch the English Cottage Gardener.  For the umpteenth time I wished for my camera.

       Dorothy chided him.  "Then you've eaten half a jar of pickles, William, cause that's what I put up after supper.  Your blood pressure will be sky high and I won't be rushing you off to hospital when you faint away."

       "Nonsense, I'm fit.  I have this minute returned from a brisk walk into town and back.  I've been to the chemist.  They've one of those blood pressure machines.  Took my turn.  132 over 80.  Shows what you know."

       He certainly did look fit.  William Marsden, at seventy something, looked like an older version of Harry or rather Harry a younger version of William.  He was not quite as tall as his son, but every bit as ramrod straight.  At his age, his build was trim and his bright blue eyes as clear as a mountain stream.  I smiled as I recognized Harry thirty odd years from now.

       "Sorry, son.  I left those olives Hannah always sends.  Don't care for them myself.  Don't know why she keeps sending them."

       "I'd best check to see what else you've devoured.  Your appetite hasn't been this hearty in years.  I'll have to remind Mary to buy an extra hen for tonight's supper."  Dorothy finished her sentence more to herself as she bustled into the kitchen.

       "Your mother loves fussing over the two of you.  She's planning some sort of dinner tomorrow night for the only people left in Arundel who haven't met you, Grace."  William stepped into the room and removed his lightweight fedora.  His close-cropped gray hair bore the slight indentation of his hatband.  He ran his hand over his hair.  "Come to think, that dinner is a surprise.  Your mother will have my hide if she finds out I let it slip.  Be surprised when she tells you.  There's a good pair.  I'd best be back to my chores."  He smiled as he turned to leave.

       William's chores, I had discovered, consisted of walking their Yorkie, Duncan and puttering in his vegetable garden.  I vowed to follow him around and take pictures of his garden.  My dad planted a garden every year.  I'd have to show him people plant things other than tomatoes, bell peppers, Melrose peppers, sport peppers, zucchini, and eggplant.

       A thought occurred to me.  "You haven't told them we're leaving, have you?"

       "Not yet.  I didn't want to spoil the fun they're having fussing over us.  I was going to try to tell them tonight."

       "Try to tell them?  We're leaving in three days, Harry.  I thought I was the last to know."

       "I've had a hell of a time telling anyone.  I knew you'd be nervous about going home and I knew they'd be disappointed that we're leaving.  We have to go home."

       It almost sounded like a question.  I shook my head in resignation.  "Yes, we have to go home.  We'll tell them tonight after supper, but before your mom starts playing the piano and we all start singing.  I couldn't do it then."

       "Agreed."  Harry put his arms around me and rested his chin on top of my head.  I snuggled into his arms.

       A good man indeed.

       A loud crash from the kitchen broke the mood and our embrace.


 

 

 

Chapter Two

 

 

 

       "Naughty, nasty boy!"  Dorothy Marsden admonished the rotund Arlo, swiping with a flyswatter at the spot he'd recently occupied.  Arlo's timed retreat from the table top to under the potato bin where Dorothy couldn't reach him was not rushed.  The imperturbable orange short hair never scampered.  His dignified escape lacked decorum as a length of sausage hanging from his furry mouth muffled his loud chirp of accomplishment.  "Nasty, old thing.  I don't know why William tolerates his tomfoolery.  Never see Annabelle or Star causing mischief."

       Harry and I stood in the doorway of the kitchen.  The room, generous by Arundel cottage standards but tiny by comparison to the kitchen I barely used in Pine Marsh gleamed spotless in the morning light.  I marveled at all the delicious dinners and scrumptious baking Mary and Dorothy produced in this tiny space.  The oversized wooden farmer's table dominating the room served as prep area and staging area for all the meals served from this kitchen.  The wooden expanse, usually scrubbed to a pine shine, looked like an unscheduled dinner prep was underway.

       Dorothy turned to face us after realizing she couldn't reach the triumphant tomcat even with the aid of the swatter.  "That animal is exasperating.  Your father knows he's a troublemaker, but he insists on letting him have the run of the house.  Why do I put up with him?'

       "Arlo or Dad, Mum?"  Harry's question caught Dorothy off guard and she narrowed her gray eyes before she answered.

       "Don't make me choose, not right this moment."

       Harry and I burst into laughter.  Dorothy couldn't stay angry long; it wasn't in her nature.  She laughed with us and moved to clean up the mess William's cat had made.

       "Let me get those."  I stooped down and retrieved the scattered fruit from under the table careful to avoid the shards of crockery smashed on the floor.  I collected apples, pears, and a kiwi and placed them in the sink to be washed.  Harry brought out the broom and dustpan and swept up the broken crockery.

       "Harry dear, dump that under the downspout at the corner please."  Dorothy indicated out the back door.  "We're trying to keep the puddles away from the foundation.  Since your father lured that awful animal home last year, we've been adding to the pile on a regular basis."

       Her comment caused another round of laughter.  "You won't be laughing when you see what's left of your lunch."

       Dorothy pointed to the overturned straw hamper on the table.  The basket, similar to the ones I'd purchased for my sisters-in-law for Christmas presents, lay on its side with the contents mindlessly pulled from the interior.  Arlo had shredded the wrapper on the cheese.  The olives, ripped from their plastic wrap, lay strewn on the table unappetizingly coated with orange fur.  A few pieces of fruit were deemed eatable; the rest traveled to the compost bucket under the sink.

       "There's still plenty, Mum.  Don't worry we won't starve," Harry assured his mother.  She seemed appeased.  I thought the fare looked a little skimpy for two appetites, but then I always ate more than my husband.

       After we had been married a short time Harry had announced to my dad, ' I'd rather clothe her than feed her, Mike.'

       In retaliation I had asked Karen my best friend to take me shopping; a dream come true for my 5'10" pal with great fashion sense who had been itching to outfit me for all the years we'd been friends.  There had been no comment when I handed Harry the receipts from Nordstrom and Saks.  He still refers to that spree as the day Oak Brook Mall declared Gracie Marsden Day and established a shopping scholarship in my name.

       "Plenty," I echoed.  I'd eat my sandal strap before I admitted there wasn't enough for me.  When Dorothy turned away from the table to ask Harry when we planned to return, I surreptitiously stuffed two breakfast rolls from a basket on the sideboard into the picnic basket.  Harry spotted my slight of hand and grinned.

       "We'll be back around three; will we be in time for tea?"  Since Harry's return he'd fallen comfortably into his old habit of afternoon tea.  It was a lovely custom, giving everyone an opportunity to relax and catch up with each other.  The Marsdens had been dears to stock their pantry with coffee for me.  They unboxed a relic of a percolator from the fifties, when post war America influenced a trend.  It worked beautifully.  I remembered a similar one that my dad used when I was young.

       "Of course, dear.  We'll wait tea for you and Grace."  Dorothy beamed at her son.  I hated the thought that we would shatter her happiness later this evening.  She knew we couldn't stay here forever.  We have a life across the pond.  We have problems to work out back home.  I shook my head slightly to stop the thoughts.

       Harry noticed my movement.  "All set, love?"

       "Yes."  I smiled at him.  "All set."

       "Excellent.  Then we're off."  He lifted two lightweight slickers from the peg near the back door.  "Might sprinkle."  He held one out to me and draped the other over his arm.  I dutifully took my 'second skin' and slipped a water bottle holder over my shoulder.  Our basket held a tasty Riesling, but I wanted to chug not sip when I became thirsty.

       "Oh, wait.  I want to get my camera.  I'll be right back."  I hurried through the living room to the back hall and up the stairs.  I swooped into our room and stopped in my tracks.  There on our bed lay a resplendent, snoozing Arlo flanked by Annabelle and Star.  Apparently William's tomcat didn't repulse Dorothy's two calico ladies.  My camera lay under Arlo's sizable head, being used as a pillow of sorts.  This would make a great picture.  Not to be.  I quietly approached the bed.  Star lifted her head and meowed hello.  Arlo's eyelids opened cautiously.  Two tawny eyes apprised me.  I moved closer and explained my situation.

       "Arlo, I need to take my camera.  Nice kitty boy, let me get this hard lumpy camera out from under your head."  I'm not sure why I talked to the orange mound except that the two girls had been extremely friendly toward me even spending some nights on the bed while we slept.  Arlo had shown no signs of liking me.

       "Gracie.  What's the hold up?"

       Arlo's head snapped up at Harry's voice.  "Okay, Arlo.  You heard him.  He'll be up here any minute."  Arlo stood and stretched insufferably long, never moving from his spot.  A second before Harry appeared in the doorway the cat lumbered to edge of the bed and plopped to the carpet.  He brushed against Harry's leg as he left the room.

       "Hullo, big boy.  So here's where you've gone off to."  Harry looked at the two remaining felines.  "Can't blame you old boy," he called after the retreating tomcat.  "C'mon Gracie, no time to play with the cats now."  Harry walked to the bed, patted each Calico, and picked up the camera.  I followed him down the stairs hoping the rest of the morning would be normal.

 

       Idyllic, more like it.  The well-worn footpath we traveled led us through meadows teeming with wildflowers blooming with abandon.  I recognized the small, white flowers of Feverfew and Marguerites, and the bright purple and pink Dames Rockets, although those weren't their English names.  Harry identified all of the flowers and pronounced their botanical names.

       "Did your firm publish a book on wildflowers once?  Where did you learn all this?  And why do the English have different names for everything?  Seems snobby of them to change our names."

       Harry smiled at what he referred to as my American view of the world.  "Could it be possible that those pesky colonists changed the names?  Did you ever think of that possibility?"

       I hadn't.  "If they did, it makes perfect sense.  Why would anyone call something as pretty as a Christmas Rose, Hellebores?"  I smirked and crossed my arms in a position of case closed.

       Harry laughed and threw his head back, shouting up to the skies, "I love this nutcase, Grace Elena Morelli Marsden."

       Idyllic indeed.

 

       The time flew by and we found ourselves back at the cottage shortly after three o'clock scurrying in the back door like a pair of truant children.  Our intention was to freshen up in our room before tea.

       "My sister is here," Harry said pointing to a travel bag on the floor next to the table.  It was indeed Hannah Marsden's travel bag; a gift from us last Christmas.  We burst into the living room expecting to hear chatter and laughter.  The scene was not at all what we expected.

       Dorothy and William Marsden sat side by side on the burgundy and tan striped sofa while their daughter sat opposite them in one of the taupe hued wingback chairs.  The silence and serious faces frightened me.  Harry spoke first.

       "Hans, what are you doing here?  It's great to see you, isn't it Mum, Dad?"  Harry looked from face to face waiting for someone to say something.

       "What's wrong, Hannah?  Is it my dad?"

       Hannah reacted then.  "Oh, no.  Everyone is fine.  Sorry, didn't mean to give you a fright."  Hannah looked at her parents, oddly quiet across the room.  Dorothy should have been fussing around her daughter.  They looked sad instead of elated at her arrival.

       "I didn't know they didn't know you were leaving tomorrow after next.  I wanted to get to you before you went home.  Didn't mean to jinx your timing."

       "Not your fault, Hans."  Harry moved toward his parents.  He sat down in the other wingback chair.  "I didn't know how to tell you, Mum.  Grace and I owe you so much for taking us in.  I felt like we were betraying you by leaving."

       "Tish.  Owe your parents for taking you in?  Is that the nonsense they teach in America?"  William's voice sounded husky with emotion.  Dorothy's eyes welled up with tears.

       Her voice trembled a little.  "We knew you'd have to go back.  We didn't want to face that time.  It's been grand having you here.  It's wonderful that Hannah has come visiting too.  I can't remember the last time you were both at home."  She paused; her face lost some color as she probably did remember the last time her children were under her roof.  It had been during Harry's convalescence.  She seemed to push the memory from her mind and turned her face to Hannah.  "Come along, Hannah, help me with tea.  Goodness, look at the time."  Dorothy stood up and motioned her daughter toward the kitchen.  "William, Duncan needs his afternoon walk.  Oh, Harry dear, will you nip upstairs with your sister's bag?"

       Everyone had their assignment.  Except me.

       I saw the look exchanged between brother and sister.  I knew Hannah well enough to realize that she wanted to talk to Harry alone.

       "Dorothy, let me help you, and Hannah can settle in before tea."  I smiled at Hannah.  She understood my ploy.

       "Thank you, dear.  How thoughtful.  Actually tea is no bother but my mum always said, 'tea made by two is twice blessed for the rest.'  Come along then."

       Now I knew why Harry came up with what I called 'britcoms,' anecdotal phrases with a British flavor.

       Hannah and Harry were up the stairs before I walked through the kitchen door.  I wished I could be a fly on the wall, but I knew Harry would fill me in later.  I hated waiting until later.

       My curiosity was bursting when ten minutes later the family gathered in the living room.  Dorothy carefully poured each of us a cup of tea.  It was a pleasant ritual, anticipating the taste of the delicious aroma wafting from the ceramic spout as it released its brew du jour.  The filling of Dorothy's cup signaled us to begin.  Harry and Hannah stayed too quiet for my taste; something was wrong.  I was dying to ask but I knew better.  Dorothy apparently didn't notice their changed demeanor as she regaled Hannah with all the news of the district, news that would have been in her next letter.

       I had already heard the update.  My mind wandered to what news Hannah could have shared with Harry.  I tried to catch his eye but he avoided looking in my direction.  Usually, teatime with the Marsdens was fun for me; reminiscent of English Country House mysteries I'd read.  I could imagine myself a great niece of Miss Marple visiting St. Mary Mead.  Today, I could hardly wait for teatime to be over.  I sat staring off into space, idly twirling a lock of my shoulder length hair around my finger.

       My twirling, twisting and braiding had started in childhood.  A diagnosis of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder at least identified my dysfunction and allowed my family to find a way to live with my quirks.  I usually kept a length of yarn with me at all times, but hair would do in a pinch.

       Harry's first words since he sat down prompted a small yelp from me.  I jerked my hand down forgetting it still held my hair.  My surprise was genuine.

       "What did you say?"

       His face showed no emotion.

       "We're leaving in the morning.  Our flight leaves from Gatwick at ten o'clock."

       Dorothy and William looked crestfallen.  First, they thought they had two days left with their son; now he would be snatched away after only a few more hours.  I felt sorry for them.  A lump formed in my throat.  I hated to see them upset; such sweet, wonderful people.  My father-in-law's brave voice interrupted my thoughts.

       "I guess our girl brought you some news.  You do what's best, son."  William reached out a hand and placed it on Harry's shoulder giving his approval.  Dorothy's reaction was another thing.  She looked miffed.  I remembered what William had let slip earlier, the party she had planned.

       "Harry, couldn't we put it off one more day?  I mean we're visiting the bees and all tomorrow and we'd still be home one day earlier than planned.  We could be all packed and ready to leave first thing."

       Harry's face clouded over at my suggestion but then lifted as he too must have remembered his dad's comment.  He looked at Hannah.  She shrugged her shoulders.  Harry looked at his mother's hopeful face and made his decision.  "One more day won't change much back home."  He lifted his hands, palms up, in a sign of compliance.

       Change much?  What changed?  If someone wasn't dead or dying, how much could have changed?

 

       "William, where's Harry?"

       I had helped Dorothy and Hannah carry the cups and saucers into the kitchen.  I fully intended on getting the whole story out of Harry as soon as we were alone.

       "He's making a quick run to town to pick up a few items for me.  Good lad."

       Good lad, my foot!  He ducked out on me.  I still have Hannah.  I thanked William and went back to the kitchen.

       De ja vu.

       "Dorothy, where's Hannah?'

       "She's gone into town to look up a friend.  Likes to keep in touch when she can."

       I was a victim of the Katzenjammer Twins.  I wondered how many times they had pulled this stunt or a variation on their parents and friends.  I underestimated the 'twin factor' as their friends called it; a natural plotting mechanism perfected by twins.  Harry had the Marsdens' car and Hannah had her rental.  Which left me on foot.

       Wait a minute.

       "Dorothy, may I borrow your bicycle?  I'd love a ride.  It's such a lovely day."

       "Of course, dear.  It's right out back."

       Three could play at this game.  I shot out the back door of the kitchen and stopped short.  Dorothy had gone on and on about her trusty Schwinn that Harry had sent one year for her birthday.  I assumed a top of the line ten-speed.  A light green, no speed bike leaned up against the chestnut tree in the backyard.  Geez.  Which birthday was it?

       I gritted my teeth and silently apologized for my thoughts.  I hopped on and wobbled out of the yard.  Down to the lane I rolled frantically squeezing the handlebars as I approached the stone pillar at their entrance until I realized I needed to back pedal to stop.

       It's a bike for pity sake, not an eighteen-wheeler.  Relax.  You had one of these when you were ten.

       I pulled out into the lane.  Oh, darn.  They drive on the wrong side.  Bikes go the same way.  I moved to the left side of the road certain that each revolution of the tires brought me closer to a head on collision with the one tourist that didn't get it.

       After a white-knuckle kilometer, I relaxed and began to enjoy the fields of recently mowed and rolled hay, the rill running parallel to the road with its sluice gate raised, and the mounds of wild Marguerite as I pedaled by on my green traveling machine.  I actually felt giddy with excitement at my plan to catch those two in a conspiratorial huddle.  I spotted their cars in front of the local pub, The Sword and Goatherd.  I knew they'd be in there sipping warm beers and smiling about giving me the slip.  The pub, a two-story limestone building with a whitewash veneer around the concrete sills and door lintels, had been listed in the county registry since the year 1798.

       I hadn't thought of what to do with Dorothy's bike once I arrived at my destination.  I didn't have a chain or lock.  Grace, this is Arundel not Naperville.  I guided the bike into an open space in the bike rack out front and entered.

       It took a moment for my eyes to adjust to the low lighting and haze of pub smoke.  The Sword and Goatherd boasted of an outside wall and partial cellar that predated the Crusades.  This part of the establishment sported the usual pub amenities.  A long bar ran the width of the room on the inside wall.  Regulars occupied almost every stool, the friendly bantering of lifelong friends and habits filling the room.  Tables lined the opposite wall under the three mullioned windows which were minimally effective since heavy vines covered the outside like a blind allowing only a hint of light to penetrate.  Along the back wall near the hearth and fireplace I spotted two familiar heads.  They were both half turned away from the front.

       Perfect.

       "The house is rebuilt–it's fabulous.  It would be ridiculous for you and Grace to move," is what I heard as I approached.

       "Why would we move?"  They both craned their necks around so fast I thought I heard a pop.  I smiled sweetly.

       "Gracie, I, we, uh, here darling."  Harry recovered and stood quickly to give me his seat.  "Sit down.  What would you like to drink?"

       "One of those lovely rum drinks would be wonderful."  I smiled up at my confused looking husband.

       Hannah looked as confused.  "Grace, how did you, uh, how are you?"

       "You forgot the bike."  I grinned at her expression.

       Harry placed my drink in front of me and sat down.  "She took mum's bike."  The twins burst out laughing.

       "I should have known."

       "I wouldn't have had to bounce along that country road if you two had leveled with me."

       "Sorry, darling.  Old habit."

       "Fine.  I'll give you that 'twin thing' but why would we move?"

       Hannah and Harry looked at each other.  Hannah's glance slid away and refocused on the dart game in progress a few feet away.  Two opponents balanced pints of ale, feathered missiles, and a running commentary on each other's ability.

       "Now, once again, why would we move?"

       Harry looked toward Hannah who hadn't turned away from the dart game, but seemed to have us in her peripheral vision.  He turned back to face me and reached across the table to take my hands.

       Oh, Lord.  How bad could this be?

       "You're scaring me.  What's going on?  Why did Hannah have to tell you in person?"

       He released my hand and gulped his scotch.  "Gracie, there is no easy way to tell you."  He paused for another swig and realized he had drained his drink.  He looked frantic for another scotch.  Hannah turned to the table.

       "I'm going up.  Can I get anyone a refill?"  Harry shot her a grateful look.  She seemed more relieved to get away than pleased to serve.

       "Ric Kramer moved in with Lily."

       I stared at his mouth trying to see the words that had escaped in that burst of a sentence, because I couldn't believe the ones I'd heard.  The man whom I became involved with when I thought Harry had been killed, had taken up residence, a scant one half mile from our home, with the woman whom Harry had been in a relationship with before he met me.  My silence signaled more explanation.

       "I guess Lily felt some guilt about Ben and her father.  She talked to Karen a few times and found out that Ric was in rehab at Marionjoy.  Karen told her about his difficulty in getting to and from his appointments.  So…"  Harry stopped and gratefully accepted the drink Hannah placed in front of him.  She sat down facing us apparently ready to join us now that the news was out.

       Yes, I was surprised to hear about Ric.  Yes, I hoped that Harry's gorgeous ex-lover would have moved out of Pine Marsh.  Yes, somewhere in my woman's heart of hearts I felt a twinge of jealousy that he had found someone.  I mean, Ric never went for long without a beautiful woman on his arm but he had never moved in with one or allowed one to move into his Oak Park brownstone.

       "Okay, So Lily is a Good Samaritan and housing Ric for his convenience while he's rehabbing.  The house has several bedrooms."  After I spoke, I realized how petty that sounded.

       "Apparently it's working out better than that."  Harry paused to choose his words.  I knew he did that when he didn't relish what he had to say.

       Good grief, could he be upset about Lily taking in Ric?  Harry never forgave him for falling in love with me.  Was he upset with him now for taking up with Lily?  Upset with Lily?  For turning to Ric–like I had?

       I remained silent.

       "Ric finished his rehab weeks ago.  He and Lily have a deeper interest in each other.  He's moved in with her on a permanent basis."

       Hannah hurried to fill in more details.  "Ric is selling his share of the brownstone to me and Karen.  We're redoing his apartments into office and meeting rooms.  I'm moving my business to the States."

       "Hans, you didn't tell me that."

       "Sorry, chap.  Was about to before Gracie came in.  That's another reason I wanted to do this in person.  Mum and Dad say they don't see me enough the months I'm in London.  I haven't told them I'm giving up my flat and moving to Oak Park."

       Hannah Marsden appeared wistful in that moment.  I knew she had always carried the responsibility of being the child that stayed home.  Now she'd have to tell her parents that she was leaving even though she'd been living in London for years and traveling to the States more frequently since she'd met Karen.

       "Anything else you wanted to tell me."  Harry arched one eyebrow at his sister.  A mirror image shot back at him.

       "Good God, isn't that enough?"

       "Quite."

       I didn't know what to say.  I couldn't think beyond the old Western cliché, this town ain't big enough for the two of us, make that the four of us.  The paper coaster under my drink had disappeared into my hands during Harry's explanation.  It reappeared as bits of white confetti on the table.

       Harry put his left hand over mine and tipped up my chin with his other hand.  "That's why we should consider moving.  I can't live that close to Kramer."  Harry kept my chin up so he could look into my eyes.  "And it's not because he's with Lily.  That was over and it will stay that way.  I believe Kramer is using Lily to get closer to you.  I don't know what I'd do, Grace, if he tried to come between us."

       The word again went unspoken, but as clear as if he had shouted.

Harry grew agitated.  The worst was over.  Why wasn't he calming down?  He knocked over his drink when he pulled back his hand.  I sopped up liquid with my shredded coaster.  Hannah's napkin was more effective.  Harry doesn't easily frazzle.  Not this easily.  Something's not right.  I looked from one set of cornflower blue eyes to another.  Oh, yes.  There's more.

       "What else?"

       Hannah started to rise to replenish the spilled drink.  She seemed to prefer the role of bar maid today.  I touched her arm.

       "Stay.  You brought this news; maybe you can tell it easier."

       Hannah sat back down and nodded her head.  "Lily has a child."

"Lily's having a baby?"  I interrupted looking from face to face.  A baby, that explains all this.  "Ric got her pregnant?"

       "Grace, listen to me."  Hannah's voice broke into my thoughts.  "I said Lily has a child, a boy."

       "Look, I may not have majored in Science but even I know it takes nine months and Ric's only known her for six."  My jovial comment crumbled like a three legged stool with the wobbles as I understood.

       Words of a madman during his attempt to kill me came back to me with startling clarity, 'they belong together; a bond you might say'.

       I turned my eyes to my husband.  His face told me what I already knew; I asked anyway.

       "How old?"

       "He's ten."


 

 

 

Chapter Three

 

 

 

       My chin slumped to my chest.  Wings of thick brown hair swept down each side of my face like curtains closing across a darkened stage.

       "Gracie?"  Harry's voice came low, and close.  I could sense his movement across the table to lean near me.  The scotch on his breath reached my nostrils.  His hand rested on my shoulder.

       I heard the scrape of his chair and realized he was getting up.  "Let's get out of here, Grace.  C'mon.  I'll help you out."  Without lifting his hand from my shoulder he moved out of his chair and squatted down next to me.

       I knew I had to lift my head and look at him.  I didn't want to.  My whole world with Harry had shifted precariously near to shattering.  We couldn't have children because of injuries Harry suffered years before at the hands of his kidnappers.  We had accepted that circumstance; had talked recently of overseas adoption.

       Now he had a child.  A son with Lily.

       "Why didn't you know?"  I spoke into my chest.

       "I stopped seeing Lily the month after I met you at Regina.  We were moving in opposite directions in our lives.  She left for New York.  I never knew.  I'm not accepting this claim at face value.  I've a call in to David.  He'll sort this out.  I've not seen documents, blood tests, anything."

       I slowly raised my head.  Tears slipped from the corners of my eyes creating paths down my cheeks.  "Is there a chance he isn't your son?  Why would she lie about it?  Why didn't she tell you when she first saw you?"

       "Grace, slow down.  I don't know any more than you do.  I'm not committing to anything until I see proof."

       Hannah cleared her throat.  I'd forgotten about her.  She reached into her bag and pulled out an envelope.  "I hadn't a chance to give you this before Gracie arrived."  She slid the pale yellow envelope toward Harry.

       I recognized the design on the back flap, Lily's wildly popular stationery, 'Wee Uns'.  A panda cub snoozed, his head resting on oversized paws.

       Harry's hand trembled slightly as he slipped his thumb inside the flap to slide out the contents.  He held the photo still and stared at it until his vision must have blurred from the tears that filled his eyes.  He brushed at his eyes with his left hand and carefully turned the photograph toward me.

       I've seen this before.  What's Hannah trying to pull?  Harry at age six, astride a pony.  Proper riding breeches, jacket, his head thrown back in laughter.  The photo is on Dorothy's piano.

       Something's different.  Color.  This one's in color.

       "Oh, God," my voice barely above a whisper.  I looked at Harry.  He had turned the photo so he could still see the little blonde haired boy laughing into the camera.  An expression I'd seen before moved across Harry's face like sunrise rolling over the landscape touching every corner, first his mouth lifting slightly at the corners to reveal a grin, then his cheekbones rising with the impetus from his lips and finally his eyes widening and reflecting the joy in his soul.

       Unconditional love; offered to a select few.  Our circle had expanded to include the sunny child in the photo.  Now the need was Harry's.  A child, a son.  I turned over the photo and read the inscription out loud, 'Will at Brighton'.

       "His name is Nicholas William, but he goes by Will."

       We both turned our eyes from the photo to stare at Hannah.

 

       The movement of the 747 on its descent pattern to Boston's Logan Airport nudged me from borderline snoozing to fully awake.  In the few seconds that transition took, my brain leaped from happy to be coming home to remembering why I didn't want the metal behemoth to land.

       Harry and Hannah decided to wait until after the dinner party to talk to their parents.  The party was lovely.  I don't think any of the guests noticed how edgy the Marsden siblings acted.  To the casual observer they were charming and attentive to their guests.  I braided, knotted, or shredded anything that caught my eye or touched my itchy fingers.  I'm certain my marks for the evening weren't that high; one of those 'colonists' with minimal manners.

       Our behavior had not gone unnoticed by Harry's parents.  Before the last guest reached the lane, Dorothy had caught each of her children with a foot tapping 'don't you fib to me', arms crossed on her chest look.

       In that moment my throat tightened as I realized it mirrored the exact stance I'd seen my mother take a hundred times with my brothers.  Well, maybe me too, now and then; usually because of one brother or the other.  I swallowed hard to break the lump forming in my throat; even five years after her death, the lump in my heart never lessened.

       The double-barrel news of Hannah's moving and Harry's son had devastated and elated the elder Marsdens.  Harry and Hannah had taken an hour to explain.  If they thought their parents would toddle off to bed after the bombshells they dropped, they were so wrong.  I excused myself at midnight.  They must have stayed up until at least two in the morning because that's the last time I looked at the clock on the nightstand before sleep overtook me.

       Harry touched my arm as the plane landed.  "No sense rushing off," he said.  We sat quietly amid a stream of hurrying humanity.  People jostling each other, bumping elbows, banging overhead bins shut, dragging oversized luggage up the aisle to the exit.  We had a two-hour layover in Boston before United Airlines would deliver us to O'Hare.  That would give us enough time to go through customs here and find our new gate.  My brother Mike had volunteered to meet us.  I knew my family; I'm sure a welcome home party lurked somewhere in their plans.

       Normally, it would be wonderful to see everyone I'd missed all summer.  But nothing would be normal anymore.  I looked up to find the plane almost empty, the last few scurrying travelers moving toward the flight attendant for their final 'bye-bye'.  We pulled carry on luggage from the overhead and deplaned.

       We left the plane in search of bathrooms.  When I came out of the crowded ladies room Harry stood at one of the food kiosks.  I accepted the cup of coffee and pulled some napkins out of the container.  We moved to a table several feet away; one of those high tables, bar height, no stools.  Standing felt good after seven hours of sitting.

       We tapped our paper cups in a mock toast.  "Almost home," Harry said.

       "Almost home," I echoed.  "Let's not tell my family about the, I mean your, about him.  The last thing they knew, we were looking into adopting a little girl from Eastern Europe.  Karen and Hannah have already made their appointment to be interviewed.  I thought we'd be doing the same.  I hoped we could bring our daughter home for Christmas."

       "Darling, I'm not saying we won't.  I need time to sort this out.  We shouldn't be rushing off to adopt a child when we haven't even met the one we already have."

       "You have," I interrupted.

       "Gracie, if he's my son, he's our son.  It won't be any other way."

       I drained my coffee to avoid answering and then stuffed my napkin into the empty cup.  "We'd better get to customs."  I moved slowly, short and stiff, like I had to conserve my strength to keep the scream building inside me from bursting out.

       Harry tried to take the cup from my clenched fist to throw it away.  He gently closed his hand over mine and finally won the cup's release.  He must have sensed how close I was to snapping.  He didn't try to soothe me; instead he turned in the direction we needed to go.  I followed.

       Dammit, Grace.  Be there for him.  This is tearing him apart too.  Remember the shock when the family learned that Joe had a daughter.  We didn't stop to ask questions, point fingers.  We scooped up Jolene and loved her with all our collective hearts.  Wasn't this the same?  We didn't know, but we'll love him.  I'll love him.  He's Harry's; how could I not love him.  But Lily.  She'll always be his mother, always be there.

       I went through customs on automatic.  The short line allowed us to be checked, stamped, and approved more quickly than we had planned.

       "If I needed to get through that line quickly it wouldn't have happened."  Harry picked up my carry on and swung it on to his left shoulder.  "Let's head for our gate and wait there.  I'll track down some snacks for us."

       Our gate was, of course, the furthest away.  "I'll take my bag.  It's not like we're skipping cross the hall."  Harry relinquished the leather tote and took the lead toward Gate 26.  Somewhere around Gate 22 I became aware of a figure waving from across the carpeted gate area.  She moved toward us at a fast familiar pace.

       "Karen?  What are you doing here?"  My best friend, Karen Kramer, rushed over to us.  "What's wrong?"

       "Nothing's wrong.  You have got to get some help with that Italian dark side of yours.  Can't a friend meet friends?"

       Harry and I both fixed her with a yeah right look.  Harry spoke first.  "Hans isn't on this flight, but you knew that.  So…?  He left his question hanging.

       "All right.  I wanted to come ahead to let you know that everyone knows."

       "Everyone knows?"

       "She means, the 'Barnum and Morelli' circus is forming, the vultures are circling, there's no turning back, the world will never be the same, they know."

       I couldn't have sounded more unhinged if I'd ranted about little green men.  I must have looked as bad.  Harry and Karen stared at me as if my outburst made me certifiable.  Karen's slack jaw, openmouthed expression caused me to gingerly check my lips for foam.

       I tried a small smile to let them know the crazy person they'd heard had left the building or at least, my body.  "Sorry.  I guess I over-reacted."

       "See.  That's why I flew out to meet you.  I know her, how she thinks, or doesn't sometimes, and I thought you deserved advanced warning.

       "Karen you are a gem."  Harry squeezed her shoulders in a grateful hug.  "We'd best board.  You can fill us in during the flight."

       With the flight to Chicago full, Karen's seat was nowhere near ours.  Harry offered to change seats so Karen and I could talk.

       "Okay, when you say everyone knows, how everyone are we talking?"  I had become remarkably calm.  The vodka tonic Harry had pressed into my hand as we boarded had some small part in my altered attitude.  The tiny vodka bottles Karen had pulled from her carry on finished the job.

       Karen waited until I had poured another bottle of clear liquid over the melting ice in my airport cup.  "I may have exaggerated about everyone knowing; I don't think they telegrammed your father's family in Naples."

       I burst into laughter and knew she was trying to help.

       "Your father's great aunt, the one in Villa Scalabrini?"

       "Zia Assunta?  She knows?  God, she's ninety-seven."  I shook my head in amazement at the Morelli grapevine.

       "She knows but she doesn't understand.  She told your Aunt Edna to start cranking out the pizelles for the baby shower."

       The hoot that escaped my lips caused heads to turn and the cabin attendant to look at me with concern.  I smiled assuredly with what I hoped wasn't a lopsided grin.

       "It's like when your niece Katie thought I was her aunt too, because she always saw us together at your house."

       I smiled as I remembered all the time Karen had spent at my house while we attended college.  Her mother had died the summer before we met at Regina.  The Morelli family had embraced her like one of their own.

       "It's like we were sisters; the ones we never had."

       I leaned toward Karen like only the tipsy can when they think they're telling a secret.  "If Ric marries Lily then he'd be a step-dad and Harry would be related by marriage and Hannah would be an aunt and you'd be a step-aunt and we still wouldn't be sisters."

       My face must have reflected my failure to plot a familial connection.  Karen's outburst of laughter sent me into a fit of giggles that escalated into hiccups.

       The plane touched down and the realization that I would be facing my family, reality, and a new life in a few minutes snapped the fuzzy edge right off my vodka high.

       Once again, we waited until most of the passengers had deplaned leaving the aisles easier to travel.

       I spotted Mike immediately.  My sister-in-law, Carolyn, and Marty's daughter, Katie stood next to him.  How much I'd missed my family became apparent as tears sprang to my eyes.  Thoughts of ever living anywhere else evaporated like July rain on Chicago asphalt.

       Mike hugged me, especially robustly it seemed, probably trying to fortify me for what lay ahead.  I kissed Carolyn and Katie and kept my arm around my niece's shoulder.  I looked past them into the crowd.

       "Just us, kiddo.  You were expecting a band?"  Mike laughed at his own joke.

       "Just cousin Lou with his concertina.  I thought Dad would be here."

       "He wanted to come but he had too much to do for your party."

       "Party?"

       Harry and I echoed the question.

       "Oh, yeah, Aunt Grace.  Grandpa has been cooking for days.  Everybody's coming."  Katie's eyes gleamed with anticipation.  "Dad and Uncle Glen are putting up a tent, the boys are in charge of the karaoke, and Chris is bringing his garage band, None of the Above, to play."

       The boys were Mike and Carolyn's sons, Jeff and Joe.  Chris was Lou's son.  He played keyboard in a garage band with three friends from high school.  I think Katie's interest extended beyond their style of music and directly to the blond, lead guitarist.

       "Sounds great," I said with some enthusiasm not wanting to disappoint the look on her face.  My stomach churned; the vodka trying to retrace its recent path.  I grabbed Karen by the hand.  "Where's the closest bathroom?  You're in the airport all the time."

       "This way.  C'mon."  Karen tugged me toward the bathroom.  "We'll meet you at the luggage carousel," she called over her shoulder.

       Throwing up always made me feel better.  This time was no exception.  I splashed cold water on my face while Karen rolled down paper towels for me.  She wet several, squeezed out the excess water, and clamped them on the back of my neck.  I shivered and shrugged out from under them.

       "I threw up; I didn't faint."

       The lady at the next sink smirked at my comment, quickly dried her hands, and left.

       Karen balled up the wet towels and tossed them into the receptacle.  "Two points!"  She rolled down a few more towels.  "Gracie, you have to get over this.  Your entire family is waiting under a tent in your dad's backyard.  The guest list is boundless."

       "You're enjoying this, aren't you?"  I questioned her mirror image.  She moved next to me and put her arms around my shoulders.  Her eyes reflected in the glass filled with warmth.

       "You can do this.  They want to be there for you, to let you know they love you no matter what.  So what if everyone knows about the boy?  It's in the open and over with."

       "Will."

       "Will what?"  Karen's eyebrows lifted.

       "His name.  The boy's name is Will."

       "Oh.  Okay.  Let's get out there.  You and Harry can stay for an hour or so and then plead exhaustion.  I arranged for your cousin Nick to drive you home when you give him the signal."

       I turned and hugged Karen.  "Okay, let's do it."  I let go of her and straightened up to my full 5'4" stature and moved toward the door.  Almost at the door I spotted the double switch plate on the wall.  Oh, no.  Not now.  Fifty?  No.  Ten.  I'll do ten.  Okay, twenty.  Only twenty.

       Karen recognized the silent struggle I held with myself.  She had seen enough of my OCD behaviors to know one at its onslaught.  "I'll get the door."

       Karen stood outside ready to direct people elsewhere.  She waited as I clicked the lights on and off twenty times counting, one, one thousand, two, one thousand, in my head between clicks.  I sheepishly opened the door when I finished.  "Sorry."

       Karen took my arm and we walked down to the luggage area.  "Don't be silly.  Remember sophomore year when I stood outside the john on the fourth floor of Power Hall so you could tap dance across the tiled floor because the acoustics were 'perfect'?  That was dicey.  This is a piece of cake."

       "Did I ever thank you for that?"

       "Probably, or not.  Who's keeping count anyway?"

       "Not me."  I grinned and squeezed her arm.

       We rounded the corner and spotted the pack mules.  Mike and Harry worked at stacking suitcases, boxes, and garment bags on two airport handcarts.  A summer abroad could add up to a lot of stuff, especially since we had arrived in England with practically nothing in tow.  No longer true.

       I walked over to the convoy and picked up a small box tied with twine and looped to a plastic handle.

       "Gee thanks, Sis.  That makes all the difference."

       I smiled at my brother and heard giggles from Katie.

Harry laughed and told Mike, "I don't think we'll get all this in one vehicle.  Did you and Carolyn drive separate cars by any chance?"

       "No we didn't, but I know my sister and I borrowed my neighbor's Suburban.  We'll fit fine.  If not, Gracie can ride on the roof rack."

       I responded like the bratty little sister of long ago.  "I'll tell Dad."

       "Who do think suggested that seating arrangement?"

       We laughed at Mike's quick wit and left the airport in fine humor.  The thirty minute drive from O'Hare to Berkeley would give me scant time to prepare for the questions, stares, hushed voices, pitying glances, and quick whispers waiting for me.


 

 

 

Chapter Four

 

 

 

       The billowing striped tent visible from a block away announced the event.  The pulsating bass audible from half that distance engulfed the van like a beam pulling us closer.  Celebration time, come on, boom, boom, boom.

       The words were clear as we parked in a spot obviously left open for us since cars were already three deep on the dead end street between my dad's house and the Byrd's house.  My brother hadn't called from the car so either an advanced scout, in the form of some cousin loitering in a bush at the corner of Taft and Bohlander or the Chopper Five News, was in on it.  I prayed it was the cousin.

       "She's here, she's here," the cry went up.  People rushed from the house, from the backyard, even from next door where some of the overflow guests chatted with the Shedd family.  In one surreal moment I envisioned the stampede of familial enthusiasm causing a shift in the earth by their sudden and pointed movement.

       Real time kicked in and I leaped forward to hug my dad.

       "Welcome home, Honey.  I missed you."

       "Thanks, Dad.  I missed you too.  I know I stayed too long."

       "You did what you had to do and now you're home."  I stayed in my dads embrace feeling the unconditional love that had always sustained me.  I watched family and friends edging closer, waiting for their cue.

       "I'd better let you say hello.  I don't know how much longer I can hog my little girl."

       "'Til the cows come home."  I smiled and took a deep breath.  I grinned, raised my hand, and said, "Hi."

       I tried to relax while moving among my friends and family, hugging and kissing my way to the house.  Somewhere between the sidewalk and the front porch a glass of wine materialized in my hand.  I briefly wished that Scotty from the Enterprise would beam me up.  Instead, I allowed myself to be led around the far side of the house.

       The backyard stood transformed; I stood transfixed.  Yards of purple and yellow striped canvas rose above groupings of white tables and chairs.  A dozen aluminum poles held up the canopy at the corners and sides around a large center post that looked like a mast.  A striped pouch, filled with purple shades of Lobelia, Wave Petunias, and Alyssum hung from each corner.  Each table center held a cachepot filled with Pansies.

       My father moved next to me as I took in the view.  I linked my arm in his.  "Dad, it's fabulous.  Thank you so much."  I was in danger of bursting into tears.

       "Okay, everybody.  Time to eat."  His strong voice turned the tide of people from me to the long table set up at the far end of the tent.

       I looked around for Harry, realizing that I hadn't seen him since we left the peacefulness of the van.  He stood near my dad's grape arbor talking to my brother, Joe.  Rather more like Joe was talking to him.  Harry's hands were stuffed into his pockets; his posture looked tense.  Joe, who doesn't wear his Roman Catholic collar when he isn't on duty, placed his hand on Harry's shoulder while he spoke.  I considered walking over; I hadn't yet greeted my oldest brother, but I suspected that Joe might be recounting his surprise at finding out years earlier that he had a ten-year-old child he'd never known about.  I turned away from the scene and the thought.  This was my party and I didn't want to think about Harry and Lily's son.

       It's my party and I'll cry if I want to, cry if I want to, cry if I want to…ran through my head until I laughed out loud.  I never even liked Leslie Gore.

       "Happy to see your sense of humor is alive and well," Tracy said.  She handed me a bottle of water and took my glass.  "You need to hydrate.  Karen told me what happened at the airport."

       Tracy was the third side of the triangle from Regina College and an excellent nurse at Elmhurst Memorial Hospital.  Every bit as tall as Karen's 5'10" and similar in body style, Tracy wore her light brown, blonde streaked hair long and curly.  Her gray eyes scanned my face with professional concern.

       "Drink.  You look beat.  Let's sit down under the big top.  Better yet, let's go inside and you can be comfortable."

       "I can't leave."

       "Now that the eating lamp is lit no one will miss you."  Tracy smiled at her evaluation.  She'd been to enough Morelli parties to know the procedure.  "We have at least until cake and coffee before anyone will come looking for you."

 

       The inside of my father's house was cool and quiet.  We moved into the living room and sat side by side on the loveseat.

       "Take another drink," she ordered.  "I know all about the boy."

       I looked at her about to ask and then shook my head.  "Who doesn't know?"

       Tracy smiled and patted my knee.  "Gracie, you know your family.  To them he's another child to cherish and raise in the tradition of the Morelli Familia.  Your cousins are already setting up outings to Cub games for him with the Fragasso, Scala, and Anderson kids.  By the time your family is finished with him, he'll be more yours than hers.  Not that it's a contest or anything," she added quickly.

       I felt a sense of release at her words.  Discovering Will wouldn't be a disaster but rather a catalyst to continuing our plan to adopt.  I realized that having Harry's son in our home on whatever terms would leave an ache when he wasn't there.  An ache we would fill with a child of our own.

       Tracy stood up and looked at her watch.  "I can't believe how long we've been in here.  I'd better find my husband and kids.  We're supposed to be at my cousin's anniversary party right about now."

       "They're here?  I didn't see them.  I have to say hello to those guys."  Tracy's sons, Benjamin and Matthew were the sweetest kids.  They were all boy and charming as all get out while they wriggled in and out of mischief.

       "Stay.  Relax, you need that more.  You see them all the time.  Anyway, I told them we'd come out to your place next week.  They can't wait to use the hot tub."

       "We don't have a…"

       Tracy arched an eyebrow and grinned.  "You do now."  She leaned down and kissed my cheek.  "I'll call you next week."  Tracy took a few steps then stopped.  She turned with what appeared to be the air of an afterthought.  "Oh, by the way, the hospital posted a great job.  They need someone who can–"

       "Stop," I interrupted, my hand flung forward ala Diana Ross in her signature song.  "What is it with all these jobs?  I can't go two days without someone telling me about a 'great job', 'made for you job', 'can't pass it up job'."  I stopped talking and pinned Tracy with the best angry look I could muster.

       She laughed and shook her head.  "You are such an exaggerator.  A job at Trinity and a job at Elmhurst shouldn't evoke that response."

       Before I could enlighten her as to the rising toll of job offers, Harry, my dad, and cousin Nick walked in.  Nick pantomimed sweeping a cap from his head.  "Car for 'ire, Milady."  The cockney accent was a cute touch coming from a young kid with a surname that used more vowels than consonants.  Harry smiled and rolled his eyes.

       I stepped into a bear hug with my dad.  "Thanks for everything, Dad.  The party was great.  I'll call you tomorrow when I'm back on USA time."

       He patted my back.  A small gesture but so comforting.  He turned to Nick.  "Take that box on the counter out to the car with you."  He turned back to me.  "You two hardly ate.  There's some of everything in there."

       "Thanks, Mike."  Harry shook hands with my dad, who was a two handed shaker, when he liked you.  Harry followed suit and the two of them looked like a huddle ready to break.

       A final wave and we headed to the home we hadn't seen since it had been damaged by an explosion and fire.  Nick talked all the way down Taft Avenue to Butterfield Rd. to York Road until he merged onto I-88.  He stopped talking at the tollbooth.

       I had leaned my head back and closed my eyes.  I heard Harry caution Nick.  "I think she's out."  His voice was low.  Nick got the message and stayed silent until we left the toll way.  I could tell by the change in speed that we were on residential streets.  I knew we'd be home soon.  I opened my eyes as I felt the car turn onto the main drive into Pine Marsh.  Our corner of the world consisted of six homes nestled in a pine forest surrounded by a semi-reclaimed marsh.  Our home, the Atwater's home, and now the DeFreest home were on the north side of the compound.  Three other families shared the south side of the beautiful development.

       Ours was the furthest away from the fork in the road.  We passed Lily's house; no way to tell if anyone was home.  Barb's house came next.  I knew she and her husband and son were still at the party.  A slight curve in the road and I leaned forward anticipating the first look at my house since the bombing.  I had walked away from it that day thinking that Harry lay dead inside the rubble.

       Nick pulled into the driveway and immediately made himself busy with the CARE package from my dad and two small suitcases that Mike must have transferred from the Suburban to Nick's car.  Harry and Nick headed for the front door before I could make myself move.  The house looked exactly as it did before the explosion.  At least from the front.  Most of the damage had been on the side and back of the house.  Harry stood at the threshold waiting for me.

       I hesitated so long Harry must have thought he'd need to come get me and he started back.  I slid across the seat and stepped out of the car.  Both Harry and Nick looked relieved.  My movement surprised me; it felt disconnected from my reality; as though I were watching someone else who looked an awful lot like me.  A cardinal's shrill cry penetrated my slow motion brain function and I immediately stepped into the moment.

       The tableau changed and I viewed my husband, the house, the entire day with a new focus.  Two people had lost their lives in the explosion that day.  I was the lucky one.  Harry and I survived.  My family worked all summer to restore my home.

       My spine straightened and my step lightened.  I covered the last few yards to the front porch in a fast walk.  Harry slipped his arm around my shoulders and we mounted the steps to the front door.  For the briefest moment I thought Harry was going to swoop me up in his arms and carry me over the threshold.  It felt as if we were starting a new life in this home.  Instead, he pushed the oak door wide open with a ta-da flourish and gently steered me into the foyer.

       The lingering scent of fresh paint and room freshener vied for dominance in the still air of the empty house.  The furniture was all there, but the sense of life and daily routine, the smells of recent meals and fabric softener was missing.  I knew the entire house had been repainted after structural and cosmetic repairs were made.  The hardwood floors shone with the newness of their restoration.  Gone were the worn spots of countless treks of shoed, slippered, and stockinged feet from room to room, walking the paths of the house.  The patina of the house was gone; the years of lived-in air, emotions captured in oxygen and layered on the walls, gone.  I shook my head and straightened my shoulders to dislodge the mantle of nostalgia settling around me.  We would put new air, new life into our house.

       "It's wonderful."  I slowly turned in a circle and put out my arms.  "I can't believe it looks the same.  It's wonderful."

       Harry's eyes gleamed with happiness.  I realized in that moment that he'd been worried about my reaction.  My smile and words assured him.  Nick took that as his cue to leave, undoubtedly to return to the party and report on our reactions.  I caught at his hand as he walked toward me.  "Thank you.  All of you.  I can't believe how much you did for us."  I smiled up into his eyes and pulled him into a hug.

       Nick's smile broadened and he gave me a quick return squeeze before he stepped back.  "We all pitched in after the contractor finished the major work.  It was the same guy that developed Pine Marsh.  He matched the brick and found the same roofing.  We took pictures of everything; first for insurance but then we wanted to show you how the clean-up and rehab went.  I even put them in an album."

       Nick warmed to his subject.  "You can't believe what it looked like the next morning.  I've got the album in my trunk.  I'll get it."

       "No, Nick.  Not now," Harry said.  He tried to keep the anger out of his tone but I recognized the edge.

       Nick immediately became contrite.  "Oh, man.  How stupid of me.  I'm sorry, Gracie.  Guess I got carried away.  I've been looking at it all summer.  Sorry.  Didn't think how you'd feel.  Didn't think period."  He looked so deflated, like a child whose toothpick bridge project had collapsed before the teacher could see it.  I couldn't help but smile.

       "It's okay.  I know you meant well.  And I'm sure we'll want to see them some day, just not today."  I reached up on tiptoe and kissed him on the cheek.  Nick grinned then glanced at Harry to see if they were okay.  Harry put out his hand.

       "I can't, we can't thank you enough for all you've done.  You know that, don't you?"  Harry put his left hand on Nick's shoulder.  "I'm a little tightly wound when it comes to that one," he smiled as he nodded toward me.

       "Yeah, you and her dad.  Okay, gotta' go.  Anything you need, you call, okay?"

       "Okay."

       Nick hurried down the front steps and across the lawn to his car.

       "Nice kid, but a tad intense," Harry muttered as he closed the door.

       I smiled at Harry's assessment and linked my arm through his.  "Well, we're home now.  Guess we should unpack or inspect or something."  I couldn't help feeling uneasy about this house, mine yet strange to me.  I walked down the hallway to the kitchen.  Harry followed me and immediately busied himself by putting on the kettle.  That felt right.  I walked into the living room and then the dining room.  "This is so strange.  I would have picked this furniture, this fabric, this color; but I didn't."  I spoke more to myself than to Harry, not realizing I'd spoken out aloud until Harry answered.

       "Karen, Eve, and Carolyn did all the shopping.  Your brothers said their wives were living out every woman's fantasy, a carte blanche shopping spree."

       "Apparently, you've kept in touch with this whole project.  Why didn't you tell me?"

       "I started to the first week we were there.  Mike had called to tell me the estimates were in and the insurance company had approved the entire list.  When I mentioned that I'd had word about the insurance claim you became agitated.  I didn't want to spoil our holiday."

       "I guess I wasn't interested in equating our home with impersonal claim forms and red tape.  I am interested in seeing the rest of the house."

       A shrill whistle from the kitchen announced tea.  We walked back to the kitchen.  That's when I noticed the fresh flowers on the sideboard in the dining room.  The sparkling jewel tones of Freesia, Gladiola, Zinnia, and Phlox filled my mother's Capodimonte vase.  I cherished that vase as one of her favorite pieces.  It never really went with the décor but it always belonged.

       "Harry, look."  I swooped it up in my hands and turned to hold out my prize.  My eyes filled with tears.

       Harry had stopped walking when he heard me call.  He beamed, grinning from ear to ear at my joy.  He inclined his head toward the china cabinet.  I followed his line of sight and spotted my grandmothers' china gleaming in the artificial light.

       "How?  My last view of this room was chaos and rubble."

       "Me too.  I only remember smoke so thick you couldn't breathe, and Kramer trapped in the flames under–" Harry stopped abruptly and looked back at me.  He continued in a brisk tone.  "I was amazed at what your nieces and nephews pulled out of the rubble.  Once the soundness of the structure was confirmed they were in there like a pack of toddlers on an Easter egg hunt.  They scoured the rooms for anything intact and pieces large enough to be glued.  They took all the pieces to 'Mr. Chips' on Ogden Avenue and they repaired what they could."

       I grinned as I noticed more and more of the mementos that make a house a home.  "I can live with this."  I walked into Harry's open arms.  "Time to move on," I murmured against his chest.

       Harry took that in the literal sense and turned us toward the staircase to the upstairs.  "Let's see what's up there."  Harry released me and took my hand as he started up to the second floor.

       Our bedroom, swathed in twilight from the bay window, glowed invitingly in shades of purple, lilac, and periwinkle.  The window seat teemed with similarly hued flowers set in vases and pots across its length.

       "Oh my gosh, this is fabulous."  I executed a slow twirl away from Harry, crossing to the window, plucking a lavender rose from a vase, and moving back into his arms.

       Harry lifted me off my feet and continued the twirl.  "Happy, darling?"

       "Extremely."  I smiled and lifted my face to his.

       Our kisses tasted all the sweeter for the heady bouquet from both the wine we'd consumed and the flowers packed into this room

       "Mmm."  Harry broke off the kiss.  "Oh, look.  A mint on the pillow."

       I left his side and walked over to the bed.  "Really?  You're joking, right?"

       "Yes, I'm joking.  But now I've got you right where I want you."  He pushed against my shoulder and I landed in a cloud of sea green comforter.  His eyes gleamed with his intention.

       "All you had to do was ask," I smiled as I kicked off my shoes and swung my legs onto the bed.

       "May I?"

       I slipped my hand in his waistband and pulled him down beside me.

       "I guess that's a yes."


 

 

 

Chapter Five

 

 

 

       "I don't understand why you feel you need to jump into a new career.  We've only just returned home.  You've barely unpacked."

       Harry had been stewing about my decision to accept the job offer from the public relations firm Barb told me about.  Not the job per se, but the timing.  He stopped haranguing to sip at his tea.  The Earl Grey brew seemed to give him a second wind.

       "You've not done any PR work since you handled reunion for Regina College five years ago.  Times change, things change."

       The look on my face must have registered with Harry as he quickly added, "Not to say you wouldn't be smashing at the job.  You've got that innate sense of what people like, finger on the pulse type of sense."

       "Please."  One word and he stopped.  "Please support me on this.  I haven't been able to write a word all summer.  I've blown whatever credibility and second chance I had with my publisher.  I've barely managed to complete the edits on other people's dreams.  I need to get a job where I can report daily for work, complete projects that aren't mine, not personalize or internalize everything.  I need a commercial kind of job that stays outside when I come home.  Trust me, this is perfect for me."

       "Of course I trust you.  I love you.  I'm a little worried that you're moving too fast, grabbing at the first thing–"

       "This is hardly the first thing.  Karen wanted me to teach children's writing at Trinity.  Sister Jeanette wanted me to be her assistant archivist.  Janet Henry wanted me to work in the alumni department.  Tracy had a job lined up at the hospital in the marketing department."

       Harry put up his hands in a signal of surrender.  "Okay.  I will agree that you've had more offers than Elizabeth Taylor has had husbands, but why choose Schwarze and Krieg?  Do you know what that name means?"

       Since I spoke only Italian as a second language, I raised my eyebrows at my quad-lingual husband to enlighten me.

       "Schwarze and Krieg means black one and war.  I find that combination unusual.  Don't you?"

       "What do you mean, like an omen or something?  So they have strange names in German.  I think it would have been equally strange if they had been war and peace.  Would that have made them literary giants?  All I know is Barb said they're doing the PR for some local events and the interview I had with Lizabeth Krieg went well.  Her family practically settled this area in the 1800's.  We clicked.  This isn't Regina, isn't Trinity, isn't anything connected to…before."

       I hadn't meant to say 'before'.  I hadn't thought in those terms but there it was.  The traumas of this last year seemed connected to people and places from the past.  Accepting a job in Naperville moved me far from those people and places.  Harry seemed to understand or maybe he realized he wasn't winning his point.

       The entire conversation took place while I paced between our closet and the bed, repeatedly throwing down outfits as I tried to determine what a public relations person wore on her first day.  Harry must have realized my dilemma as the pile of rejected clothes grew.

       "Darling.  The blue suit with the lavender blouse."

       "What?"  I was deep in the closet wrangling more hangers off the pole.  Harry held up the two articles of clothing in question.  "It's perfect for you.  Anything you wear will be fine but I think this makes the statement you want for your first day."

       I threw my arms around his neck crumpling the blouse between us.  "He does fashion consulting too," I gushed in mock praise.  "How did I get so lucky?"  I kept my arms around his neck and let him pull me closer.

       "Ditto"

       It is now 7:30 a.m.  You requested to be awakened at this time.

       We both started at the voice of our roommate, a talking Betty Boop alarm clock, a wedding present from his side of the family.  If one of us didn't slap her molded plastic derriere and turn off her alarm the next sound would be a loud buzzing that could shake loose the fillings in your teeth.

       "Sorry, I forgot she was on.  Didn't want to oversleep."  I walked over to the nightstand and shut her down.

       Harry held out the ensemble to me.  I took the clothes and rewarded his choice with a light kiss.  "Gotta' go.  I'll fill you in on my first day over dinner tonight."

       "Dinner?"

       "You were going to suggest dinner out for my first day of work, weren't you?"

       "Absolutely.  I'll meet you at Sweet Basil at five-fifteen.  Unless you want Mexican; we can go to Potter's Place."

       "Sweet Basil is fine.  I feel like Italian."

       "Yes you do," Harry smirked as he reached for me.

       "You're going to make me late for work."  I moved quickly into the bathroom.

       "Tell them you got lost."

       I smiled as I turned on the shower.  Schwarze and Krieg.  Prestigious company to land a job with.  Black and War, that was sort of creepy.  I wondered if they knew what their names meant in German.  They had to.  I wished Harry hadn't told me.

       Shake it off Gracie.  This is yuppyville West.  No shadows, no secrets.  My brain admonished me to think clearly.  I reached for the length of yarn tied to the medicine cabinet door and tied fifteen bowlines before I stepped into the shower.


 

 

 

Chapter Six

 

 

 

       The auctioneer banged his gavel.

       "Ladies and gentlemen, we will begin the bidding in section two with offer number 16 in your program…"

       I tried to count heads from where I stood.  I had judiciously ordered the largest tent available through Outdoor Events a local party store.  It peaked in five spots, center and corners, which gave the attendees a good deal of room to move around and enjoy the bar and hors d'oeuvres set up on one side.  A stage took up only a quarter of the tent leaving space for 200 rented white folding chairs.  The grass had been mowed that morning and the pleasant scent of nature mingled with the food, perfume and tobacco odors filling the tent.  The clear plastic side panels had been tied up since the evening was mild and the light breeze felt refreshing.

       The set up was directly in front of the depot and across from the Beaubien Tavern and the Netzley/Yender House, two other historical properties that had been moved to the park after the depot.  Events ran in both buildings throughout the day: apple coring, pie making, biscuit baking in Netzley/Yender; booths with homemade soap and homemade honey, the Abner Doubleday batting cages, and tours of the Stationmaster's home.

       The volunteers from the society, dressed in period costumes conducted the demonstrations and tours.  One gentleman dressed as the original stationmaster of the depot who according to legend haunted the depot.  He had been killed by a band of men traveling the rails, plundering the depots along the way.  The story goes that the stationmaster surprised them and was overcome.  He'd been knocked unconscious and locked in one of the trunks waiting for shipment.  His assistant found the body the next day when he noticed a bit of cloth sticking out of the lid.  The stationmaster had suffocated in the airtight compartment.

       His gravesite, in the Lisle Cemetery, teemed with flowers during Depot Days which is when most 'sightings' of him occurred.

       The society member playing the part wore great makeup, pasty white skin, and dark sunken eyes.  I shivered and hoped he wasn't scaring the children.

       Our goal, to raise twenty-five thousand dollars for the Lisle Heritage Society for maintenance and further restoration of two historical buildings, seemed within reach with the crowd tonight.  The society did a great job securing donations of wonderful nostalgic memorabilia and expensive antiques for the auction.  But the piece¢ d¢ resistance¢ had been discovered by me, doing my usual obsessive-compulsive research.

       I had explained the plans to Harry that first night at Sweet Basil.  Barb Atwater had joined us to hear about my first day on the job she'd recommended.  Half way through cocktails I had Harry and Barb excited about the event.

       "My job is to market, promote, advertise, and pull off an extraordinary auction and English Tea that will net the Heritage Society, our client, twenty-five thousand dollars.  Lizabeth Krieg is doing the job at cost since her great, great uncle settled this area.  She's to be honored for her contribution.  Her partner's husband's family also settled in Lisle, so both women have a personal interest in the success of the campaign.  In fact, Ava Deutsch, granddaughter of the original Johann and Marta Deutsch is hosting the English Tea at the Jefferson Hill Tea Room.  She lived there as a kid before it was converted to the tearoom and shops.  The top floor is supposedly haunted by a sobbing woman."

       Barb's eyes positively gleamed.  "Oh, this gets better and better."

       I'd best let Hannah know," Harry said.  "You know how she goes on about hauntings.  Could barely get her out of the roadhouse on 55th Street.  Kept insisting on going upstairs to have a look."

       Hannah made a practice of tracking down those places.  Harry was referring to The Country House in Clarendon Hills supposedly haunted by the spirit of a young woman tragically killed in a car crash.

       Harry continued, "I blame that book you gave her about Chicago area ghosts.  I think her goal is to investigate each one in the index."

       Barb and I laughed at his pretended chagrin.  We both knew he'd accompanied his sister on many of her jaunts to the haunts, as they called their outings.

       "Then I shouldn't tell her about the supposed haunting of the Depot by the original stationmaster?  They say he died in one of the trunks in his keeping, murdered by marauders."  I couldn't resist the drama.

       "Please don't tell my sister, she'll want to move into the place."

       We laughed at Harry's assessment.

       "Maybe the sobbing woman ghost is the Stationmaster's widow."

       "No, she lived in the depot and moved back East after his death."

       "Maybe the legend is wrong.  Maybe he was playing depot days with 'Jefferson Hill Dolly' and 'Mrs. Stationmaster' found out and derailed him into the trunk.  And Dolly is sobbing because she misses her choo-choo."

       Barb and I dissolved into giggles.

       "Ladies, I am appalled that you would so malign a legend of Lisle."

We all burst into laughter and chatted easily about what would appeal to the upscale crowd Schwarze and Krieg hoped to attract.  I listened to their ideas and advice about what to do and even committed a few of them to memory.

 

       A voice at my elbow brought me back to the auction.

       "Did they get to them yet?"  She pointed to an open page in the auction brochure.  My sister-in-law, Hannah Marsden, stood next me.  Her easy smile, a family trait she shared with her brother, lit up her face.  She was excited about auction block 66.

       "Not yet.  The auctioneer is only in section two and the trunks are in section six.  It should go quickly though, maybe another thirty minutes."

       "Perfect.  Karen drove on her own."  I nodded in understanding.  Karen Kramer, my best friend and Hannah's life partner, had a terrible sense of direction.  She rarely arrived on time even when she left herself time to get lost, stop for directions and retrace her route.

       "She should be here before then.  I'm going to wait near the door, which is also near the bar.  Clever girl to camouflage the bar in the old smithy shop.  Shall I bring you a tonic?"

       My English sister-in-law possessed the same dry humor as her brother did and even now I wasn't sure if her comments were genuine or tinged with light sarcasm.  I kept reminding myself that Hannah came from a country whose smithys were hundreds of years old.  I sensed her humor with colonists who were so excited about a centennial celebration.  And I wasn't sure if tonic meant a specific drink like vodka tonic or if she meant a generic something to pick me up.  How could English be so difficult to understand.  Hannah stood looking back at me.

       "No, thanks.  I need to keep a clear head."

       "Fine.  I'll be back with Karen.  Soon, I hope."

       I smiled as I thought of the excitement and speculation my find had generated at Schwarze and Krieg.  My compulsive attention to detail uncovered the receipt and record for off site storage during the moving of the depot to its current location.  The original depot had burned, but been rebuilt in 1874.  The edifice that had controlled transportation from then until 1978 had been carefully lifted and moved to its permanent home at the Lisle Station Park.  The Lisle depot was unique along the Burlington line in the sense that it provided a residency for the stationmaster.  The depot remained operational with a stationmaster in residence up until the day they moved it.

       In doing the research to bring me up to speed on the event I ran across receipts and had to dig deeper.  One storage facility was a lower level basement in one of the antique stores on Ogden Avenue, a converted gristmill.  That strip of old Plank Road had three antique stores in less than a mile; Antique Affaire, Antique Bazaar and Antiques on Plank.  The owner had been part of the preservation committee and volunteered to store the contents of the depot during the move.

       The other storage area was in the basement of the Book Nook on Main Street.  The Waskelis family offered to store some of the trunks.

       The find of eleven railroad trunks, circa 1890 to 1920, generated all the excitement.  The owner of the store, Ava Deutsch, was traveling in Europe.  Her son, Karl hadn't been much help at first.  He had been a teenager when the trunks were moved and wasn't interested in finding them.  He didn't want to be bothered to look up records or search through storage.  He insisted, as everyone assumed, that they had been returned once the depot was in place.  I thought my search over until one of the ladies in the store reminded him of the cement room on the lower level that opened to the back of the property.  He had glared at her seemingly angry that he had to put himself out any more than necessary.  The trunks were found in a small separate room that Karl grudgingly opened.

       In its day as an active mill, farmers would back their wagons into that room to unload the wheat harvest.  The area had filled in with debris blown in under the uneven doublewide doors.  Time and weather and lack of use had taken its toll.  The floor was dark with bygone stains and current animal droppings.  The trunks were sound and had not suffered much for their neglect over the last two decades.

       Three trunks had been stored in the basement of the Book Nook back in a corner that reached under the sidewalk.  Through the years, old displays and furniture blocked the trunks from view and memory.

       We researched the tags on the trunks and were able to find descendants of the owners.  The Godshalk family was thrilled to get the two trunks belonging to their Great Aunt Alice.  Three other trunks were also reunited with family.  The remaining six trunks had no tags or obvious ownership; they were deemed abandoned.

       The idea to offer them at auction came to me immediately.  I thought of the big splash over Geraldo's attempt to open Al Capone's safe.  People loved that kind of shtick.  I sold Lizabeth on the idea and tonight's high bid would prove me right, or not.  I scanned the room again certain that at least another fifty people had entered; I hoped with the sole intent of bidding on the trunks.

       "There you are.  I thought you'd be up front ready to turn the key as it were."  Harry slipped his arm around my shoulders and kissed my cheek.  His foot pushed against my tote bag on the ground.  "Shopping?"

       "Huh?  Oh.  I didn't set up all day in this," I put my arms out to display my Jones New York periwinkle blue suit, "or these," pointing down to three inch heels.  "I put my clothes and some of the set up stuff in here when I changed.  Forgot to put it in my car before Barb drove it back to our house so she could come back with her husband and we could drive home in one car.  See what a great planner I am."  I smiled sweetly at my husband.

       "I'll take it out to my car."

       "Don't bother, it's not a problem.  I planned to watch from back here.  I'm too nervous to be up there," I admitted.

       "No bother, I'll be back in a bit."  He lifted the bag with a mock grimace at its weight.

       Hannah and Karen arrived as volunteers wheeled the trunks out on an old-fashioned luggage dolly.  I motioned them forward.  "Go on, get your seats.  Barb's saving three up front.  She has numbers for each of you."

       "Did I see Harry leaving?"

       "He's putting something in his car; he'll be right back.  How full is the parking lot?"

       Hannah smiled and signaled thumbs up.  "Jammed."

       I smiled as I watched them scurry to the front to claim their seats.  People continued to pour in.  Where was Harry?

       On cue, he stood next to me.  "Darling, you've got a winner here.  At ten dollars a head to get in you're going to make a lot of money for the heritage society."

       "Did you pay again?  I forgot to give you your pass."  I rummaged in my stylish but too small purse for a plastic badge.  I held it out to him.  "Sorry."

       "It's a worthy cause and it makes your bottom line look better.  Although your bottom line looks fine to me."  He smiled and slid his hand around my waist letting his fingers graze a little lower.

       "Stop that!"  I said half-serious in my protest.  "Later."

       "How about we buy the whole lot and go home now."  I made a face at him and turned my attention to the stage.  The auction was starting.

       "Who is that woman walking up the far aisle?  I saw her in the car park when I was putting your sack in the boot.  She pulled in next to me, seemed in a huff when I didn't move out of her way quickly enough for her to park.  My boot was jammed; forgot I had Walter's clubs.  Had to pull everything out to fit your ditty bag.  My clubs were in the grass blocking her.  Tossed it all in while she glared at me.  Hope I didn't leave anything lying about.  Had to fidget with the locks again.  Darling, remind to have them repaired."

       "I followed Harry's glance."

       "That's Ava Deutsch, the force behind most things in Lisle and a relative of my boss.  You didn't say anything to her, did you?"

       "Darling, I'm the soul of discretion.  She was the one behaving rudely.  I wondered is all.  She looked familiar to me."

       "She's involved in everything.  You've probably seen her picture in the paper."

       "Possibly.  Familiar yet different.  It'll come to me."

The sharp bark of the gavel cut off further conversation.  Harry rushed to take his seat.  The auctioneer began his description of the trunks.  Each was to be auctioned and then each owner would open the trunk in view of the audience.  None of the trunks had a key.  A specialty locksmith, John Schoebel, had been hired to be on hand with his ring of metal shapes.  The wizened seventy-something gentleman was actually related to Lizabeth by some twist on the family tree.  His thinning gray hair matched the stubble on his face.  He stood off to the side waiting his time to take the stage.

       The bidding was brisk for the three small Bridal chests and the one domed steamer trunk.  The excitement increased with each auctioned chest; drawing closer to turning the key on hidden secrets.  At least that's how I had publicized the event.  The ploy had worked.  People squeezed into the tent even after the bidding began.  I suspected that most were spectators, come to enjoy the drama.  Several of the costumed individuals from the heritage society were present.  Gertrude, a new member, had convinced Walter to take the part of the smithy.  I spotted her now across the room.  Her brown hair tucked up under an attractive wide-brimmed feathered red hat gave her the look of a Victorian lady, further enhanced by the period costume in tones of red, purple and black.  She nodded graciously to onlookers and fanned herself with a beaded red and black fan attached by a loop to her wrist.  I wondered if the fanning was scripted or menopausal.  Three loud raps brought me back to the auction.

       The last two items looked identical.  "This is a Humpback wardrobe trunk circa 1890, made locally by the Chas. T. Wilt Co. of Chicago.  The trunks were designed to ship upright with the peaked top to prevent crushing from other luggage.  The pyramid top held a telescoping rod used for hanging garments.  One of the more expensive designs for rail travel.  The bidding will begin at $1550.00."

       I spotted Hannah's card in the air, then Lizabeth's.  I wondered if she was trying to run up the bid to insure success.  Harry's hand shot up.  Barb's hand made its debut, then Hannah signaled again.  A flutter of white caught my eye.  Ava Deutsch, the owner of Antiques on Plank, raised her card.  Hannah reacted in kind.

       Ava was a taller than the average woman, maybe five feet eight inches, with short stylish blonde hair.  Her build was sturdy, but in no way stodgy.  She wore a knee length coatdress, a shade of deep peach.  The patterned peach and tan silk scarf set the tone of high style, but her camel hued matching gloves and shoes polished her look of sophistication, outshining the jeans and Dockers in the crowd.

       Ava's hand moved up again.  Fabulous.  This bidding was almost higher than the other trunks combined.  I knew Hannah had her heart set on one of those peaked trunks.  Ava still had the high bid.  Hannah backed down and Ava's bid stuck through the gavel's third rap.

       "The last trunk ladies and gentlemen is an exact duplicate.  Probably manufactured in the same lot.  This case has slight damage around the base.  Nonetheless a charming piece.  The bidding will start at $1375.00."

       He'd barely brought the gavel down to open the bidding when Ava Deutsch's hand lifted her white card in the air.  I could see Hannah's shoulders tense.  Her hand rose.  A quick acknowledgment of her bid and the auctioneer nodded in Ava's direction.  Then Hannah's, once more to Ava.  This was becoming a horse race.  I knew Hannah was stubborn.  I suspected that she felt Ava Deutsch was being greedy.  I also suspected that Ava, a shrewd businesswoman, knew she could triple her profit by selling the trunks as a set.  Ava doubled her bid.  The crowd got involved, swiveling their heads from one side of the room to the other, like a tennis match with the white cards passing back and forth across their vision.  Hannah leaned over and said something to Harry.  He nodded and her hand shot up and flapped her card twice signifying a match and raise on her bid.

       "Wow, they're really going at it.  I can't believe how much money this is raising.  You were right, Grace.  Nice call."

       High praise from Lizabeth Krieg.  I was about to reply with a modest 'thank you' when I noticed a police officer moving toward Ava Deutsch.  He motioned her out of her aisle.  She acted reluctant to leave and tried to sidestep toward him while still keeping an eye on Hannah's card.  When she was close enough to insure some privacy, the officer leaned toward her and spoke quickly, gesturing back toward the door.  His news must have been important.

       She leaned down to her son, handing him the card and imparting what could have been some bidding instructions.  It was apparent by his reaction that he hadn't planned on an active part.  He looked as though he'd come from unloading one of their trunks: jeans, sweatshirt, gym shoes; work gloves stuffed in his back pocket and a small cooler at his feet.  She left him looking angry and baffled.

       The auctioneer had paused in his patter giving the young man a chance to answer Hannah's bid.  His hand raised slowly.

       Another white flash from behind Hannah.  I couldn't see who it was.  She turned in her seat to view the competition.  Ava's son raised his hand again, this time more quickly.  I still couldn't identify the newcomer.  The chairs in that area had been curved to accommodate the public address speakers and the people were seated closer to each other.  The new bidder signaled again.  Hannah marked her next tier.  She had moved the price to over three thousand dollars.  She looked at the son whose hand was still down and then behind her; her eyes sent a message, back off.  I held my breath as the gavel sounded and the auctioneer declared, "Sold to the persistent lady in the third row."

       Three thousand one hundred and seventy-five dollars.  I surely hoped Hannah thought it was worth the price once the adrenaline left her system.  All smiles, she went up on stage to stand next to her property.

       I noticed the last minute bidder leaving the tent.  I could see now that it was a woman as she hurried out.  Her sturdy shoes carried her across the grass.  I thought she looked overdressed, not in a fashion sense, but with a flowered scarf wrapped around her neck and chin and a pale green floppy hat enveloping the top half of her head.  The rest of her outfit looked oversized like generous hand me downs.  She certainly didn't look like anyone who could have afforded that trunk.  I turned my attention to Lizabeth as she joined the new owners and the locksmith on stage.

       "Ladies and gentlemen, thank you for your generous support of the Legends of Lisle campaign to promote the preservation of Lisle's historical treasures.  The auction concludes our program for tonight but the excitement continues as we ask each person to open their trunk.  The owner of the trunk with the most interesting contents will receive a $200.00 gift certificate from Village Vendors redeemable at any store in Lisle."

       I had taken Hannah's empty seat.  "I feel like I'm waiting for a drum roll," I whispered to Harry.  The first trunk opened easily from one of the keys dangling from the locksmith's ring.  The trunk yielded a set of china with a bright floral pattern and two teapots.  My throat tightened as I remembered another set of china that had been left behind.  I shook off the memory and focused on the next chest.

       Since the styles were similar, the locks opened quickly with the same key.  No china in this one.  This trunk must have belonged to a student or teacher.  It was filled with textbooks, journals, and notebooks.  The smaller of the two remaining chests revealed more books, two revolvers, and a dozen bottles of Dr. Goodhealth's Elixir and a partially used tin of rat poison.  The audience chuckled at the combination.  So far, this one seemed to be the winner.  The other chest gave up maps, charts, and climbing equipment complete with ropes, crampons, and carabiners.  Interesting, but not a winner.

       At last, the matched trunks.  Hannah practically vibrated with excitement as she waited her turn.  Karl Deutsch, Ava's son seemed uncomfortable standing in for his mother.  He leaned over to speak to Lizabeth when the locksmith moved toward the trunk.  Lizabeth shook her head and waved Mr. Schoebel toward them.  He hesitated and looked out over the crowd as if waiting for Ava to rejoin them.  Several heads turned to follow his gaze.  She wasn't there.  He turned back to Lizabeth.  More discussion followed.  She finally seemed to relent and turned to Hannah.  Apparently they were going to give Ava more time to get back before they opened her trunk.  Hannah looked thrilled to be next.  I leaned forward in anticipation, hoping for vintage clothes or maybe a musical instrument.

       Mr. Schoebel seemed to be having trouble with the lock.  He stood back and shook his head.  The entire audience sighed.  It didn't seem to me that he'd tried all the keys he had on that ring.  I heard Hannah ask him try another.  He backed away and shrugged his shoulders.

       Lizabeth stepped forward to the microphone.  "Some secrets must be kept," she said with a crafty smile.

       I'm sure she was trying to 'spin' this unexpected curve to the benefit of Schwarze and Krieg.  "Some locksmith," I whispered to Harry.  "He didn't try very hard."

       "If he knows locks, he'd know if he had the right key.  Odd, though.  The trunk isn't that old, should still have keys."

       Lizabeth moved toward the first trunk.  "We'll start our judging with this trunk."

       "Wait.  I know someone who can open my trunk."  Hannah's voice rang out over the audience.  Harry grinned and started to get up.

       "My brother, Harry Marsden, can pick locks."  People started murmuring and turning their heads to stare at Harry who had stood, but now looked as though he'd rather sit down.

       Hannah must have realized her gaffe.  "I mean, he did when we were children in England and we found grandmother's old trunks in the attic and when we were older, the wine cellar at mum's brother's country house.  Uncle Edward never did realize he was a bottle or two light after we visited."

       I knew my husband's skill, but I hardly thought he wanted the entire assembly to know that the lock picking he practiced had become a valuable skill when he worked for British Intelligence.  Who knew what Hannah would blurt out next?

       Her stumbling brought laughter from the crowd and a sprinkling of applause.  She stopped squirming and babbling, and motioned toward her brother.  "Harry, do come up here."  The clapping increased.  My husband walked onto the stage and approached the trunk.  I knew he hadn't brought the slim leather case containing various steel picks that I had seen him use only once before.

       Harry turned toward the audience.  "Perhaps someone has a metal finger nail file or a hatpin or hair pin?"  Barb Atwater immediately began a hurried search in her purse.  My neighbor adored Harry and would love nothing more than to come to his aid.  She loved anything English, a true anglophile, and would be doubly pleased to be up on stage with two Englishmen.

       "I've got one, I've got one," Barb announced.  She quickly left her seat and made for the stage.  Several women were ahead of her converging on the stage and my husband with various offerings in their hands.

       Harry, always the charmer, made a big deal of each item offered until he had at least three files, an assortment of hairpins, another key ring and one lethal looking hatpin.  Hannah had both hands out palm up to hold the items for Harry's use.  The seven women who had charged the stage moved to the side, but not off the platform.  They apparently thought they had a vested interest in the outcome.

       The keys did not work, nor the hatpin or the files.  Harry was down to the hairpins.  The pressure mounted; with each attempt the audience leaned in closer.  You couldn't buy this kind of publicity.  I noticed that almost half of the audience had made their way back to the cash bar at some point during the suspense.  Good.  More profits for the Lisle Heritage Society.  Actually, all profit.  One of Liz's partner's relatives, a distant relative of the Godshalk family of Arboretum fame had donated the bar.  These German families were almost as entwined as the Italian families from Taylor Street.

       Harry made of show of searching through the hairpins in his sister's hand and choosing one.  I felt certain he could have opened the lock on his first attempt but he knew the value of showmanship and he was giving us our money's worth.  He knelt on one knee in front of the lock with his head close to the trunk and cocked at an angle as though he were listening to internal directions.

       My fingers reached for the length of yarn tied to the handle of my Dooneybrook purse.  I looped three patterns as I waited for Harry's success.

       Karen leaned toward me.  "Do you think he can get it?"

       "No doubt about it.  Absolutely."  She smiled at my loyalty.

       Harry shifted his weight and stood.  He gestured for Hannah to open the trunk.  She eagerly flipped the metal bars and pulled at the handle.  The collective curiosity of the entire assembly tugged with her.  My three loops expanded to seven.

       The metal seam parted and the front half of the tall wardrobe swung open.  Hannah's gasp silenced the murmurs.  Her scream started a cacophony of voices and a rush for the exit.