Natalie J. Damschroder

 

Against the Rules

 

 

Black Tie Inc.

 

 

This is a work of fiction.  Names, characters, places, and incidents are products of the author's imagination or are used fictitiously and are not to be construed as real.  Any resemblance to actual events, locales, organizations, or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental.

 

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Copyright © 2004 by Natalie J. Damschroder

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Praise for Natalie J. Damschroder

 

"Natalie Damschroder give this short story a double dose of fantasy with the magic of Hollywood and the wonder of Norderin Wood. Elf Lord takes you from here to there and back again, on a brief but fantastic journey that proves true love really can become reality. Don't miss it."

–Megan Hart, author of Dream Upon Waking

 

"Natalie J. Damschroder has written a beautiful, moving story of love at its purest.  In To Heal the Soul, I felt chills of sweet wonder as I was left with a vague sense of having been touched by an angel, of wondering if I would ever encounter Logan McKnight as he moves on and restores hope in the lives of those he encounters."

–Titania Ladley, Women on Writing

 

"A romance with heart, Second Chance at Forever is a unique story that deserves a second glance. Pick this one up and I can guarantee you won't be able to put it down for a long time."

–Julie Shininger, Escape to Romance

 

"Ms. Damschroder has created a balanced plot showcasing the relationship between two people struggling not only to live again, but to love again. I recommend this book as enjoyable and touching."

–Jonni Rich, Ivy Quill Reviews

 

"Natalie Damschroder brings an evocative tale to life in Second Chance at Forever. Written with her characteristically poetic style, Second Chance at Forever weaves a beautiful tale of healing and romance. ... As these wounded souls travel the path to healing, their challenges, struggles and self-discoveries make for a memorable tale. Highly recommended."

–Cindy Penn, WordWeaving


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Dedication

 

For Sergio, the inspiration...

and Jim, who makes Sergio unnecessary.

 

And for Lisa Mondello and Cathy McDavid,

who always help keep me on track.

Better friends don't exist.


 

 

 

Chapter One

 

 

 

After months of tolerance, acceptance, and even rationalization, one small birthday present killed a relationship.

Veronica Bailey picked up the little black box in two fingers and narrowed her eyes at Colin Frederick, her soon-to-be-ex-boyfriend.

"It's a pager," he said, taking the device and fiddling with the buttons.  "See, this shows who's paging you, and here's where a little message, like call me, would be, and-"

"Colin."  Her sharpness instantly quieted his enthusiasm.  She began gathering the torn paper and balling it.  "Why did you give me a pager?"

"It's your birthday."

Yeah, three weeks ago.  To be honest, Veronica had to admit she hadn't noticed his lack of a birthday gift.  It was glaringly obvious now, however.  She stuffed the red-and-white wrapping paper into her brass trashcan and paused to assess the man she'd been involved with for the past year.  He looked as he always did, his gold-blond hair smoothly curving over his forehead, his wire-framed glasses polished to a high gleam.  His custom suit hung with nary a wrinkle as he perched on the edge of her desk.  He was perfectly suited to be her partner.

Too bad she didn't want him.

"Why do you think I need a beeper?" she asked, struggling to keep her patience.

He shrugged one shoulder and managed to appear endearingly confused by her agitation.  "So I can reach you when you're not near a phone?"

"I thought so."  She shook her head as she tossed the pager into the gift box, topped it a bit harder than necessary, and thrust it at him.  "No thanks.  I don't think you'll be needing to get in touch with me."

He took the box automatically and slid off the desk.  "What–what do you mean?"

Veronica mentally backed up a step.  The pager had been the final straw on an overburdened hump, but she'd only now decided the load wasn't worth carrying.  She'd hoped their problems would work themselves out, which was not an attitude she usually took.  Now she must explain, without hurting his feelings too much, that he drove her crazy and she never wanted to see him again.

She sat in her leather chair and crossed her legs, motioning for Colin to sit as well.  "I'm sorry, but it's just not working out between us."

"You've got to be kidding me."  Confusion was replaced by cockiness.  "Are you telling me last night didn't work out?"

Veronica almost laughed at the memory of Colin's acrobatic behavior the night before.  It had been ridiculous, but he'd been so proud of his imagination that she'd faked it.  She'd faked more in this relationship than she'd faked in her entire life.  No wonder she wasn't happy with him.

"I'm sorry, but there has to be more than sex.  We're just not very compatible."

"But we're both VPs!"  He made it sound like their jobs alone made them compatible.  When Veronica had first started dating him, their mutual goals had been the main attraction.  As time passed, she began to suspect Colin wanted to keep tabs on her, make sure she didn't rise higher than he did in the subtle politics of the banking industry.  Her goal had always been bank presidency and he was the right kind of partner to help her reach it.  Now, though, she was discovering deep-seated needs neither her career nor Colin Frederick could fulfill.

"I'm sorry.  I'm just not ready to give you the level of commitment you're looking for."  Hoping that was an easy enough letdown, she rose to usher him out.  "I hope you won't let this affect our working relationship."  She smiled and moved to close the door behind him, but he sidestepped her and circled back into the office.

"It's been almost a year.  You want to just toss that away?"

"I'm not tossing it."  She raised her hands, then let them drop to her sides.  He was right.  He deserved more than a brush-off.  "What do you want out of our relationship?"

He seemed to be thinking about it, forming his words.  "I was hoping we'd move in together soon.  See how that goes for a while."

She snorted.  "Yeah, Perkins would love that."  Their boss had deemed himself Captain of the Morals Police at First Pennsylvania Bank of Harrisburg.  She leaned her hip on the desk and folded her arms.  "Besides the fact it would mean death to our careers, why do you want to live with me?"

Again, he paused, and she wondered what his real agenda was.  "Because we make a great couple, everyone says so…your family, my family, our friends.  We complement each other here, and we could do the same at home."

"Do you love me?"

He looked puzzled.  "What does that have to do with anything?"

She took a deep breath and stepped forward.  "I can't live with someone who doesn't love me.  I need more than superficial compatibility."

His square jaw firmed.  "Do you love me?"

She shook her head.  "No."

He deflated.  "I guess that's it, then."  He stepped toward the door.  "I've got to get back to work."

Veronica stared after him as he closed the door quietly.  He'd given up, just like that?  After a year?  She knew well Colin's insecurities and his ambition.  She wouldn't be surprised to learn their relationship had been part of his long-term plan, much as it had been part of hers.  If it was, she'd just put a major crimp in both.  But she could re-evaluate her future and design a new plan.  Colin, she feared, had a significant capacity for revenge.  She could still be part of his plan.

"God."  She heaved a sigh and went back to her chair, deciding not to delve any deeper into wild speculation.  After surveying the folders on her desk to decide which pile of bank business demanded more attention, she sat and flipped the cover on a proof of their latest ad, which focused on First Pennsylvania's superior customer service.  As Vice President of Consumer Affairs, she had responsibility for the bank's advertising.  This ad was supposed to go to print tomorrow.

She couldn't concentrate on the words or the photo.  The confrontation disturbed her.  She hadn't expected that.  The breakup had been coming for a long time now.  He was getting possessive, calling her every night they were apart, grilling her on what she'd done with her friends, even showing up at a movie theater she'd gone to with her sister.  His attempt to check up on her was pitiful and she'd almost decided to break it off then.

She spun her chair around to gaze out the window at the green lawn and shaded street.  She should have ended it, but inertia was a powerful thing, and it was easier not to.  Until now.  She thought of the pager and her blood heated again.  He wanted only to keep her in constant contact.  That wasn't love, or even intense like.  It was a power play.  He hated that she enjoyed the same status he did, that she had, in fact, been a vice president longer, and was searching for any way to keep her below him.

She'd be damned if she'd let him.  Not only was she the youngest vice president First Penn ever had, she was the first female.  She'd earned her status, and no jealous colleague was going to hold her back.  Not when her goal was to be the youngest president the bank had ever had.

She frowned.  For the first time, the image didn't inspire and excite her.  It made her restless.  She swiveled back to the desk and tilted her chair, trying to sort out the emotions seething within her.

Ambition had always dictated her decisions, each step necessary for reaching her goal of bank president.  Her choices of escorts had been like Colin.  They fit the image of the man she thought a bank president should date, but image was all they'd fulfilled.  None had touched her inside, where she was real.  None had come close to developing the kind of Grand Passion her parents claimed.  Whatever she was truly looking for, she hadn't found it.  Not at college, not at First Penn, and certainly not at her parents' country club.  She wasn't sure it existed outside her imagination.

Maybe it was time she stopped looking.

Her watch beeped to alert her to the executive meeting.  She gathered her notes and slipped down the hall to the conference room.  As she reached the door, Colin rounded the corner to the adjacent corridor and almost bumped into her.  For a moment, hatred flashed in his eyes.

"Excuse me," she murmured before preceding him into the room.  While part of her was disconcerted by the intensity of his emotion, training and experience took over.  A woman in power in a man's world didn't give ground, not even at the doorway.

She settled into a chair as far down the table from Colin as possible.  Her mind wandered during the usual boring announcements and discussions until the word "promotion" caught her attention.  She focused on the head of the table where the bank president, Jamison Perkins, spoke.

"And so, Joe will be retiring at the end of the year.  Which means we will need a new senior vice president."  He beamed alternately at Veronica and Colin.  Veronica's heart sank and leaped at the same time.

"Of course, a decision of this magnitude will take some consideration.  The announcement will be made at the end of November."  He went on to the next topic of business, and Veronica fought her body's urge to slump into her chair.

Her path was laid out before her.  Promotion to senior vice president before a short hop to president of First Pennsylvania Bank of Harrisburg.  Her dream was within her reach, but it was in Colin's reach, too.  And now he had powerful motivation to destroy her.

 

"Nicholas Trent, is it?"

The clerk's voice matched the perky eyebrows that queried him over a file folder.  Nick nodded impatiently and slouched deeper into the chair.  How long could it take to open a stupid CD?  He'd been a customer of this bank for almost five years.  He already had three CDs and an IRA in addition to his regular checking and savings accounts, but this little bluebird seemed determined to drag it out like he was a new, suspicious customer.

"I'll just take a few moments to fill out this form, using your previous information.  Then you can sign the application," she pointed at the appropriate lines, "and we'll process the transfer.  After that, you can sign the transfer form and be on your way."

Nick checked his watch and shifted his weight in the plush chair.  "Look, can't I just sign the form and you can fill it out later?"

The young woman frowned.  "Oh, no, that wouldn't be proper.  You must verify the information before signing.  What if you've moved since your last CD application?"

"I haven't–"  Nick sighed as she stared at him, patient but determined.  It was pointless.  "Go ahead.  I'll just sit here and wait."

"Thank you.  It will just be a moment."

He folded his hands over his stomach, trying to find some comfort for his six-three frame in the short chair.  He watched Susie Service type for a minute, but every hunt-and-peck keystroke drove his blood pressure higher.  He ground his teeth and looked around the room.

It was a typical bank lobby.  Subdued, with dark colors and recessed lighting.  Half a dozen customers waited in line, and as many bank employees wandered about, but the high ceilings and carefully chosen furnishings absorbed the sound.  The overall effect was soothing.  At least, it should be.  It only made Nick want to get up and leave.

He shifted in the chair again.  This restlessness wasn't new.  Patience was a foreign word to him lately, with bank service, traffic, his career, his other career–and his women.  His last date had almost put him to sleep; the one before that evoked brotherly feelings.  He hadn't had sex in over a year.

Over a year.

The words echoed in his head.  The implication behind them was louder.  He hadn't found any woman attractive enough to take to bed in twelve months.  Not colleagues, not bar-hoppers–not even the divorcée his boss had introduced him to last month, and she was hot.  There was only one explanation.

He wanted more.

But what?  Hard to believe no woman he'd met in a year had the qualities he was looking for.  He guessed each had some.  A sense of humor, intelligence, passion.  Nothing more or less than any other man wanted, but he wanted them in a certain combination.  A unique combination, packaged with elegance and class.

He looked at his torn jeans and ancient T-shirt and snorted.  A woman with elegance and class would have nothing to do with him.  Especially if she found out what he did for a living.

A door opened to his right and Nick glanced that way.  His attention focused on the woman who strode out of an office and behind the teller booths.  Tall, she carried herself with the confidence of someone who had earned it.  Her honey-blond hair swept below her shoulders, something rarely seen on a professional woman.  So many thought they had to yank all their hair back to be taken seriously.  Those who left it down usually did so to call attention to their femininity, to use it.  In this woman, it just was.

As Nick watched, she leaned over to read the computer screen of one teller.  Her pink-frosted lips moved, and the teller nodded and smiled.  The woman leaned back and swept her gaze over the bank, as if surveying her domain.  She obviously held an important position at First Penn.

Her gaze flicked across Nicholas, not pausing, but she seemed to find something amiss behind him.  Her smooth, lightly tanned brow wrinkled slightly and her heels tapped a rapid rhythm as she strode across the tiled front of the lobby.  As she passed to Nick's right, he let his eyes roam from the hint of chest showing above her chocolate-brown suit coat to the long, long, long legs exposed below her skirt.  Her shoes exactly matched her suit.

"Sir?  Sir?"

Nick realized Susie Service was hailing him, and he leaned forward to sign at the appropriate places.

"Hey, Susie, that woman who walked by?"  He tilted his head in the direction she'd gone.  "Who is she?  She seems important."

Fear flashed in Susie's eyes before she averted her gaze.  "That's Veronica Bailey, Vice President of Consumer Affairs."

"She's your supervisor?"

"Y-yes.  Did you have a complaint, Mr. Trent?"

The sudden firming of the girl's voice drew Nick's attention back to her.  She had drawn herself up and was looking him in the eye, ready to address whatever affront he'd taken.  He smiled.  "No, Susie, you've done a fine job.  Can we do that transfer now?"

"Yes, sir.  One moment."

She rushed to an available teller.  Nick turned again to watch the woman, who now spoke to an older man in a double-breasted suit.  Veronica Bailey.  Vice President of Consumer Affairs.  He liked that.  The title conveyed intelligence, drive, respect, and the confidence she emanated.  This was a woman he'd like to meet, but how?  He couldn't walk up to her in her place of business and invite her to dinner.  He needed an excuse.

Susie Service could provide one.  She'd given him the perfect opening by asking if he had a complaint.  Problem was, he didn't.  Sure, she'd been slow, but he no longer minded.  If she'd been a bit More efficient he'd have missed Veronica Bailey.

He was smiling as he walked out of the bank, tucking his account papers into the back pocket of his jeans.  Just last week his mother had asked him what on earth he was looking for.  He hadn't been able to answer her.

He could now.

 

Veronica rubbed her forehead at the end of a long week, trying to ease the wrinkles setting in from her constant frown.  The pen she held jabbed her temple and she cursed, licking her finger and rubbing at the spot to remove the ink.  Her eyes never left the page in front of her.

It was a formal complaint against one of her tellers.  It was the second one in a month, and Jennie was going to be very upset.  She tried hard and had a talent for making the customers feel at home.  She always greeted them by name, and asked after their children or job or aches and pains.  Everything a customer could want in a small town bank.  No, customer service wasn't her problem.  It was more serious than that.

Veronica picked up the phone and dialed the front extension.  Jennie answered.

"Jennie, can I see you in my office, please?"

"Sure thing."

A minute later a knock sounded on the half-open door.  Veronica waved Jennie in, and the girl sat in the chair she indicated.  Veronica braced herself against the sweet smile and perfect grooming, and forced the words out.

"Jennie, we have a problem."

The young blonde's face crumpled and she inhaled, blinking hard to fight her tears.  "It's Mr. Jankowitz, isn't it?  I knew he'd file a complaint.  Oh, Ms. Bailey, I'm so sorry."

"Jennie, please stop crying."  As much as she wanted to, Veronica did not soothe the girl with useless it's all rights.  It wasn't all right.  What good was a teller who couldn't count money?

"I fixed it, I really did.  I realized as soon as I cashed the next customer's check, because I had too many fifties.  I was supposed to have–"

"I know what happened."  Veronica kept her voice gentle but resolute.  "We're not here to rehash the problem.  We're here to solve it."

Jennie sat up straighter and wiped her index finger under one eye.  "Yes, ma'am."

"Now, you know the policy is probation after three complaints.  If another complaint is filed before the probationary period is up, your position will be terminated.  Do you understand this policy?"

Tears welled up in Jennie's eyes again as she nodded.  Veronica felt helpless to find a solution in this case.  Always before she'd found an alternative to termination, but this was harder.  This was the third time Jennie had given a customer substantially less cash than they'd requested.  The first time the customer had noted it right away and pointed it out.  Flustered, Jennie had been unable to calculate the difference, and the situation had deteriorated.  Veronica had been called to placate the frustrated customer.

The second time, an elderly gentleman depositing his Social Security check noticed when he got home that his bank deposit slip showed an amount two hundred dollars lower than his handwritten slip.  That had taken some time to fix, and Veronica had spent an entire afternoon retraining Jennie.  This third complaint could not be chalked up to inexperience.  Jennie just seemed to have a problem with figures.  That was disastrous in a bank.

Veronica waited until Jennie had herself under control.  "I've changed your schedule this week.  I'd like you to help Sadie with filing.  She's backlogged, and it will give you a chance to recover.  I'm afraid you'll be tense and make more mistakes, and I don't want that to happen.  Is this okay with you?"

Jennie nodded, her gaze now missing Veronica's by a few inches.

Veronica smiled gently.  "Why don't you go home early today?  I think you could use a mental health hour."

Jennie smiled and whispered a watery thank you before leaving, closing the door behind her.

"Damn."  Veronica curved her shoulders, trying to ease the tightness in her upper back.  Usually she relocated an employee to another department if they didn't work out in the first one.  She'd even moved a drive-thru teller to the maintenance staff when he began nodding off during slow periods.  Forced into exerting himself, Jason was now an assistant manager in the maintenance department, and ever grateful to Veronica for not firing him.  She had never fired an employee.

But there was no room anywhere for Jennie.  Sadie's filing would last a week.  Veronica had to find an alternative before then.  She flipped open her address book and prepared to call in a favor.

As she reached for the phone, it rang two short rings, signaling a call from one of the customer service representatives.

"Bailey," she answered.

"Veronica, it's Melissa.  I have a customer here asking to speak to my supervisor."

She frowned, knowing Melissa couldn't explain why with the customer in front of her.  "Are they scene-making angry?"

"I don't think so."

"I'll be right there."

As she walked across the lobby to Melissa's desk, she assessed the situation.  The man standing in front of the customer chairs looked familiar.  She thought she'd seen him in here once or twice in the last week.  His worn jeans, T-shirt, and leather jacket, together with longish brown hair and scuffed boots, gave him the appearance of a troublemaker.  Veronica did not condone trouble in her bank.

"Is there a problem?"  She kept her voice low as she met his eyes.  The electricity in them shocked her, as if it was real.  Disconcerted, she turned to Melissa.

The woman shook her head.  "I'm not aware of one."

"Mr…?"  Veronica turned back to the customer, avoiding his gaze this time but focusing instead on his mouth.  It was firm, bracketed by laugh lines.  She knew they were laugh lines and not frown lines because he was smiling at her.  Her pulse jumped.

"Trent," Melissa offered.  "Nicholas Trent."

"Mr. Trent?  Did you find our service unsatisfactory?"

"Not at all."  He smiled, and again Veronica had to steel herself against her body's involuntary reaction.  This time, it was nothing as subtle as a bolt of electricity.  This time, her heart rolled.  No, a tiny voice protested.  This is a really bad time for this.

"As a matter of fact," Nicholas Trent continued, "service today has been exemplary.  I wanted Melissa's supervisor to be aware of what a superb job she's doing."

Veronica let her polite smile grow, showing her delight.  "Well.  That's wonderful.  I'm always thrilled to hear positive remarks from our clients."  She took a step toward her office.  "Would you be willing to fill out a short questionnaire for Melissa's file?"

"Sure."

"Right this way."  Veronica winked at Melissa as she led Nick to her office.  She left the door open and crossed the navy carpet to a file cabinet.  "I've seen you here several times, Mr. Trent.  Are you satisfied with our general service?"  She dug into a file, searching for the comment cards.  She found one and pulled it out, straightening just in time to catch him eyeing her legs.  Instead of affront or resignation, her usual response, she felt a little thrill of pleasure.  She barely suppressed a shiver and moved behind her desk to hide her odd reaction to this man.

"Yes."

She took several seconds to remember her question.  "Oh.  Good."  The card.  She almost threw it across the desk in her discomposure.  "Well, this card only takes a moment to fill out.  The representative's name is Melissa Easter.  You can leave your name and number if you wish."

He bent his head to the task, and Veronica tried to tell herself to look busy.  Instead, she sat and stared.  At the long hand, tanned fingers lightly gripping the gold pen.  At the brown hair caught in his collar, sun-streaked and silky-looking.  At the worn leather on his right shoulder; she wondered what he usually carried that had created a dark patch.  At his penmanship as he filled out the card, writing in a scrawl that was nevertheless legible, even upside down.

What are you doing, Ronnie?  She tried to pull herself out of her trance.  He's a customer, and not your type.  Not at all polished, like Colin.

That was it.  He was Colin's opposite, which appealed to her so soon after dumping him.  It was natural for her to be a bit lonely, especially after Colin's clinging.  But Nicholas Trent was all wrong, even for a rebound fling.  Not to mention his status as a customer.  And her very precarious future.  She resolved to fight this attraction, even as weakness seeped into her muscles.

As soon as he'd scribbled his name, she got to her feet and held out her hand.  "Thank you again, Mr. Trent.  I hope you continue to be satisfied."  He shook her hand, holding it just a bit longer than necessary, staring at her with a quizzical look, as if in debate with himself.  Heat slid up her arm from the point of contact, making her wonder if pressing against him would make the rest of her body hot.

She fought the urge to jerk her hand away.  It would be impolite.  "Is there something else?"

Nick tried to force his brain to work.  It had abandoned him sometime after their skin met, leaving him no control over that hand or his tongue or any other part of his body.  It just sat in his skull and laughed.

Say something.  He'd spent almost two weeks planning this move, trying to force a teller or customer service rep into extraordinary service.  Good or bad, it didn't matter.  He'd simply watched Veronica Bailey travel her domain, wearing those curvy suits like some soft version of battle armor.  Her skirts, while decent, always showed an incredible length of leg, and the variety of colors she wore brightened the dark interior of the bank.  Far from window dressing, she was more the centerpiece of a very elegant table.

"Thank you, Ms. Bailey."  His brain sulked back into action.  He released her hand, and full control resumed.  "I do have one question before I go.  It's not bank related."  She nodded, her slate eyes clearly curious.  "Would you have dinner with me sometime?"

Lame, Trent, really lame.  You sure know how to dazzle.  Certain he was finished before he'd started, he was about to leave when he caught a flare of interest in her eyes.  She covered it quickly, smiling politely.  Nick knew what was coming, but it didn't matter now.

"I'm sorry, Mr. Trent.  I'm not allowed to date customers.  Thank you, anyway."  She ushered him to the door of her office, and he shrugged.

"Oh, well.  I guess I'll have to change banks, after all."  He grinned, pleased at the flicker of uncertainty in her eyes.  She laughed it off, however, apparently preferring to take it as teasing.

"We'd be sorry to lose you, Mr. Trent, but thank you again for filling out the comment card."

"You're welcome."  Nick smiled and headed toward the main exit.  The back of his neck prickled, and he relaxed.  As bad as his performance was, it hadn't been a waste of time.  He felt her watching him all the way across the bank.